Wat Is Dis All Bout

2007-02-14T13:28:00.000+08:00

it's valentines day today.
exactly 1 month since i last blogged. lol.
cny is tis sunday.
tis fri marks the start of exams.
after that, it'll b the holis.
goodness, time flies.
i havent even start revising 4 my exams.
i cant absorb anything on HPI.
how 2 do the quiz on fri???!!
i hav absolutely no mood 2 study man cuz cny is approaching.
i dun wanna spend my cny studying can.
stupid lame shit TP.

the promises you made is not equivalent to patching up. i dont think i can ever trust you. ur words, they sound so empty tt it's meaningless.

2007-01-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday morning, went to see a doc abt a swollen portion at my knee cap there.
Mummy asked me if i had recently knocked into smth or not.
i said i dunno.
Daddy said mayb it is gout.
the doc say it is nth to worry abt.
i asked him why it's swollen and expected him to ask me if i had knocked into smth.
but he said it was due to stress.
i was lyk EH? really meh? stress then my kneecap swollen?
then how come when i was studying 4 my o lvls my kneecap not swollen?
tt period was the most stress one la. DANG!

after that, went to TP library to do my Sociology project.
fancy going back on a Saturday huh.
it's the first time i'm going back to sch on Sat.
FIRST!!!
oh well. tis is kinda lyk a last min work so cant blame.
who ask my group members' timetable to clash so much that we had no choice but to meet up on Sat.
plus we hav to submit the draft ppt slides n our invidual assessment on Mon but we havent even touch it.
Finding Forrester is actually quite a nice movie.
I tot it would b boring n stuff or smth very literature. haha.
managed to complete most of it.
tasks were assigned.
we're s'posed to finish it by tonight n email it back to carmen.
i finished it tis morning wif some help frm carmen, refreshing me on some parts of the movie.
cuz i kinda forgot some parts of the movie.
plus i missed part of the 1st disc.
and i've only watched it once.
japheth n carmen watched it twice or thrice orede.
being able to complete my part on Socialisation is an accomplishment, judging from my STM.
so yeah.
at around 2pm, we were dismissed.

during the meeting, i was kinda slow.
mayb it was due to my sleepiness so everything they said i had to process it slowly.
so when i finally tot of smth, anil mentioned it.
i was lyk DAMNIT. stupid brain.
so it was lyk i didnt contibute much during the meeting.
felt kinda bad. STUPID slow BRAIN.

then tis morning, i saw carmen online and asked her countless questions on the movie clip.
felt so bad cuz frm last night until tis morning i kept throwing questions at her until i finally finish my part. LOL.
she asked me why i went off so fast ytd.
i told her nature calls.
she said tt actually ytd they wanted to leave together but the next thing they noe, i was gone.
oh man, i really really feel so bad.
it's lyk i'm being anti-social or wat.
lyk i so hate my group lyk tt. oh man. oh man.
i really really didnt mean it.
in fact i'd rather work wif my group than any other group. really.

everytime i tell myself that i will do this, i will do that, but when the time comes, i didnt do it. sigh.

2007-01-09T23:07:00.000+08:00

now i noe why they say a guy n a girl can never be best frens. forever.
but why does it have to happen to me???
at the wrong time.
right after i broke up wif my ex.
it's juz too sudden.
it's juz so not right.
maybe i shouldn't have told him that day.
then it wouldn't turn out this way.
sigh.

2006-12-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

ok, i'm back in singapore. i feel kinda sad.
there's tis feeling inside me.
i guess i miss thailand.
even though there's dogs on the streets, narrow n small roads, roadside stalls, cheeky guys who look n whistle at girls, motorcycles n scooters, white guys who r old n go there 2 look for thai mistresses or girlfriends, red light districts n everything tt's not high-end.
it's the simple life there tt attracts me.
the cool wind gently blowing against me.
the serenity of the beach.
the high tides in the morning n low tides at night, makes me feel more in touch with nature.
when i was there, i wished time would stop so i can remain there n be there to experience forever.
it's such a nice feeling.
even though i've been to many beaches in many other countries, with the waters so much more bluer n clearer, but i nv get to stay near the beach.
pattaya's a beach place plus the hotel is near the beach.
mayb tt's y i'm so in love wif thailand.

i lyk our driver.
his name is ah chat.
tt's wat my dad calls him. haha.
i wan his eyelashes. his eyelashes r so long.
we met him at the new airport in Bangkok.
he's a nice n honest guy thus daddy n my uncle decided to hire him the next day to drive us from pattaya to bangkok for shopping n back 2 our hotel in pattaya.
yesterday ah chat drove us from our hotel in pattaya to chinatown in bangkok then to the airport.
we will definitely miss him.
the next time we go to thai again, we'll definitely give him a call n hire him as our driver again.

from monday till thursday, we went shopping n to tourist attractions in pattaya.
at pattaya beach, we saw live soccer.
pattaya ppl VS finland, germany VS finland, germany VS thailand, etc.
we also went to watch an elephant show in the tropical garden.
the elephants there r so cute.
they noe how 2 play billard, basketball, soccer, bowling, paint, massage ur butt n bow 2 say thank u.
we also saw tiger, iguana, parrot n orang utan.
they were not in a cage but were out in the open.
the tropical garden is so damn big.
one can literally spend a day walking around the garden.
the flowers, trees, bushes, lakes, bridges, etc. were all so nice n adorable. oh my.
n there r these structures made of small pots into elephants, "tu-tu", heart cove, etc.
really creative!

the taxis there r cute too.
i mean the old-fashioned ones.
what my cousins called the "tu-tu"
the ones in goong. when xin n tt ballet girl sat 2 escape from the paparazzi.
tt's the bigger version of "tu-tu".
it's lyk a pickup but with seats n shelter.
it's my first time i get 2 sit at the back of a pickup.
the experience was refreshing. though i always end up with tangled hair at the end of the day.
as for the modern taxis there.
all i can say is tt they're colourful.
there are light blue, dark blue, pink, red, orange, yellow, green, purple.
n there r toyota limos. ONLY in thailand.
oh. i forgot 2 mention. it duzn rain there.
although the temperatures r high but the wind is cooling unlike s'pore's.
where the wind is humid.

the underwater world there is almost lyk s'pore's.
nth special. kinda lyk a waste of money.
parachuting in coral island is damn fun.
i wanna do it again. tis time it muz be longer.
sitting on different kinds of boats on our way 2 coral island is nice too.
so relaxing.

there r so many things to say. too many in fact.
it goes down the list. it can take up to days to describe everything. LOL.
everything has to come to an end.
i guess it's time i end tis entry.
all the time i've spent in thailand, lyk it's all in a dream yet the feeling is so real.

2006-11-16T00:36:00.000+08:00

getting v lazy nowadays to blog.
am blogging now becos i got nth 2 do while waiting 4 fauzi, my lab partner, to come online.
i told him 11 plus now it's lyk 1230am orede?!
damnit la.
he's damn gd 2 me huh. make me wait plus i still hav 2 do most of the bleedin brainstorming myself? argh.
LABreportsREALLYsucks.
how i wish the teacher let us choose own our partner.

reached home at 9plus juz now.
before that had some public speaking workshop.
hussein, some guy i met during toastmasters wif hilly, was the speaker.
it was fun overall.
had MUCH laughs. though i was kinda tired orede.

had 4 hrs break somewhere in the afternoon so liping, shihui, lloyd, yu xuan n i went to watch step up.
WOAH! nice!
Channing Tatum, tt guy is absolutely fantabulous! with his muscles n sculpted features of his face.
oh-my-god!
all their dance steps n stuff-totally amazing.
makes me wanna learn everything abt dance. LOL.

during bmic lab frm 3pm-6pm, i was having a gd time gossiping n checking out the girl fauzi lyk until tt stupid J-O-S-E-P-H ruin everything.(exaggerating)
he juz freakin sat on MY chair n put his bloody contaminated stinky golves on MY pretty paper.
i scolded him and he still hav the cheek to walk away without apologising, giving my tt look still.
WHAT IGNORANCE!
if there wasnt such a thing called violence in the dictionary, i swear i would hav smack him on the spot man.
oh ya, i think benjamin kinda tricked me abt looking thru the microscope for the cells.
cuz one moment i saw the cells was pink the next it was blue then pink again??
weird.

ytd had 2 stay back for the Standard Chartered briefing at Tamp Sports Hall.
saw desmond. he is my in-charge. suay ar. out of so many ppl. lol.
after tt went 4 dinner at yoshinoya wif charmane, charlene, yvonne, lynn, jessica, liping n lloyd.
reached home at ard 9plus.

tml still hav 2 stay back for the PAP thingy to sell ice-cream for CIP hours after cellb lab. sians.
at least tml wont hav 2 miss another episode of goong.
missed 2 episodes orede la. some more going 2 end soon. sobs.

2006-11-09T10:02:00.000+08:00

ok ppl i'm gonna make tis real short.
man sorry 4 my laziness to update.
juz recently, last last sat, went out wif kheng puay to bedok.
sat at macdonalds n chatted for lyk 2 hrs plus.
amazing.
well, kheng puay was such a forgiving soul.
she kinda of lyk waited for me for lyk 40 mins or so.
well i hav my reasons.
becos b4 tt i went running wif Mummy n Stan at Bedok Reservoir.
after tt went to Bedok South hawker centre for breakfast.
my bro as usual ate lyk a slow poke.
waiting for him eat finish his breakfast is lyk waiting for the tortise to reach his destination.

then on the 3/11 it's my pretty boy brother's bday.
went to Canton Kitchen Restaurant at Eastpoint for dinner.
scrumptious!
wanted to go Changi Beach to light the bday cake BUT my sister complained she's tired or whatsoever.
so lyk her to spoil it.
so in the end we light the cake AT HOME. :)

last sat had a hari raya function at the CC.
had fun there.
food was malay-ish. LOVE the curry puffs.
met Rabia'tul there.
wahahaha. small small world!
the malay's costumes r really v dazzling.
with gold n silver. they dress so nicely n i went there in 3-quarters.
oh well. at least we won the 2nd price in the LUCKY draw.
it's a microwave.
my parents thought of buying one but now they've got it! LOL.

also, recently went to the new Dhoby Ghaut shopping centre to catch a movie with my sister.
THE COVENANT.
cool n good looking guys. LOVE them.
but overall it's nth much. i prefer Death Note to tis.
the plot is really nth special.
kind of lyk Van Helsing. abt the generation thingy.
but Van Helsing is way WAY WAY better.

the rest i kinda dont rmb. pardon me for my STM.

dont try to b too nice to me. i may juz fall for u. pls dont. i dont want it to friggin happen. i want things to remain lyk it is.

2006-10-26T08:28:00.000+08:00

aha. yesterday ate 2 bday cakes.
at night, my parents bought me a bday cake.
before tt went Eastpoint for a walk wif my sis.
though there's nth much there to look at, at least it's a nice place where u can destress.
lesser ppl there wat.
tis morning, i woke up n saw a red packet frm Daddy.
so nice of him.
normally only my grandma give me.
haha.
today no lessons.
actually hav but shihui, liping n me decided to skip leadership tutorial.
cuz it's either we get law or we drop so got leadership tutorial oso no use.
MUAHAHA.
-runs off to watch Princess Hours on youtube-

2006-10-25T19:49:00.000+08:00

yeah. today's my bday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

went to sch to appeal for a change of cds.
before tt was chatting happily wif kheng puay on msn.
well not really happily more lyk complaining to her abt the cds.
met liping, shi hui, charmane, yu xuan, lloyd n eric.
hope our appeal from leadership to law is successful or else we drop.
met gaohua at IT school. dunno wat he doing there.
after that went to tm for dinner.
had long john sliver.
then shihui n liping went BreadTalk to buy me a bday cake.
no wonder they were missing when we were supposed to b eating.

then went to open plaza to cut the cake n stuff.
then after they cut the cake, each one of them smeared cream on my face.
tml surely hav pimples one.
really appreciate wat they did for me.
THANKS ALOT, CLIQUE!
am kinda happy today cuz ppl whom i tot hav forgotten my bday actually wished my happy bday so yeah.
am so easily satisfied. LOL.

suddenly i let out a sigh of relief. it's lyk a load is lifted off my shoulders. now all i feel is frustration.

2006-10-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

hmmm. forgot to blog that on the 14th of October, i went to JB wif my family n my relatives.
went to the new Jusco shopping centre to SHOP.
lyk duh.
bought a new pair of slivery pink slip-ons n a black pink panther top.
went to Lucky Restaurant for lunch n Bamboo Restaurant for dinner.
food was YUMMY.
reached home at around 11 plus.

sun went bishan park for a run.
woke up at 630am AGAIN.
always 630. dunno y Mummy lyk it so much.
after that had breakfast at the hawker centre near bishan park.
reached home at ard 11plus.
went to my grandparents' place at ard 5plus.

mon, school reopen.
sian. got sociology later tt day.
was kinda boring. kept yawning throughout the lecture.
why is it almost everyone got their 1st or 2nd choice while i get my 4th choice??
ok... mayb it's juz my luck.
n i'm alone in socio. besides elyn n yu xuan.
i feel so pathetic.
luckily i saw dyana n sat wif her BUT that was it.
cuz i hav nth much 2 talk 2 her.
argh. i hate it.

tues celebrated my bday EARLY.
apparently my parents r not free tml n it's a public holiday today.
so yeah, ordered pizza hut n kfc for dinner.
after that, watched Daddy Day Care on Channel 5.
wanted to watch Princess Hours but majority wins.
oh well. at least Daddy Day Care is funny. n cute.
got my 2nd cds today.
i got leadership. WTF.
leadership is not even one of my choices!
my choices were Psychology, Law n Accounting.
F***! i hate tp. tp sucks.
how can they anyhow allocate cds for us?
plus a cds tt we're not even a single bit interested in?
how r we gonna score well for it?
argh. not even a single respect 4 our choices.
i bet they didnt even look thru our choices n leave everything up 2 the computer.
wat a load of bullshit.
oh well. arghhhhh!

WHY??? WHY???!!!!

2006-10-21T20:57:00.000+08:00

MA MEH MOO!
*ahem* i'm going to b 17 soon.
but i dont feel it.
i dont feel anything special that i'm going 2 b 17 soon. weird.
oh well, today Mummy drove my sis, bro, maid n me to ecp to cycles lyk duh.
i dun understand y muz my mother make us wake up so freaking early juz 2 go cycling.
y cant we set off at 8am??
y muz we wake up at 630am n set off at 7am?
it's not lyk ecp is real far frm simei!
at ard 11am, went to fetch Daddy at bedok interchange.
went home, bathed, changed, went out again.
TO my daddy's fren house for lunch.
well. well. it's Deepavali. so yeah.
his fren's house is all the way at Toa Payoh.

ard 3pm, finally Daddy decided to go.
while Daddy was driving, Mummy spotted our EX-car!
COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wat a coincidence.
SFH6211E! a beige Toyota Corolla Altis.
holy cow! my my. imagine. at Toa Payoh.
we live in simei. MOHOHO.
gawd. oh yeah. tt's OUR 3rd car.

then went to giant at bedok.
bought FOOOOOODDDD.
GREAT BUY: F&N groovy grape(big bottle) for 99cents.
*ahem*
then Daddy drove Mummy n me to Singapore Expo for the BIG MEGA Metro Sales.
bought bottoms. Mummy bought lingerie n bottoms. hehe.
then Mummy bought me Orange Julius LARGE.
Mmmmmmmm. Yum-Yum.
reached home at around 7.

so now i shall type down roughly wat i did(so long i can rmb) ever since i last blogged.
had AG11 class bbq on FRIDAY the 13TH at ecp.
take note. FRIDAY the 13TH.
quite fun la.
oso witnessed some festival to welcome the God from the sea.
quite interesting.
stayed until 10plus.
Daddy n Mummy came n fetch me home n gave lee jin a lift too.

Gao Hua finally came back frm New York on Friday.
asked sook huan n me out.
went to Chinatown for lunch n accompany him to book air tickets to NY again.
he forgot to do some stuff. LOL. waste 2K juz lyk tt.
then went to the new shopping centre at Dhoby Ghaut.
come shops still havent open yet? so long.
booked tickets to catch the 4.10pm Death Note.
FANTABULOUS. cant wait for part 2.
it's a MUST watch. GENIUSES man.
oh. did i mention it was FULL house??
the 3 of us had to sit at the first four rows.
surprisingly my neck didnt hurt so much.
the cinema's sound quite deafening.
got one part when Naomi shot Shiori.
the gunshot DAMN loud.
i got a bloody shock man.
CANT WAIT CANT WAIT!!!

shall stop here for now.
-runs off to catch I Not Stupid 2-

P.S. at first i looked forward to going back to school. but now, i kinda dread it. sighhhhhhhhhhh.

2006-10-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

WAH LAU! @*^&$%$##!%^#@&
i nearly typed finish the bleeding entry then suddenly dunno wat the hell happened the window juz f***ing closed by itself.
#@*&%&^#$%@%**%$^
do u noe how much effort i spent typing it??!!!
now i'll hav freaking lesser time to watch the vcds lee jin lent me.
lee jin said i watch v slow.
yeah it's becos of things lyk these tt slows me down.
argh.

OKIE hilly ASK me out! before it's too late.
wanna go see the new shopping centre near HarbourFront??
u noe VIVOcity? haha.

o.O kheng puay tagged me.
i tot she's one of those who read but nv tag. LOL.

leslie the world IS square. until i sandpapered it n *BOO* it became round.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE ENTRY:
my LOVELY parents bought a NEW car. BRAND-new.
it came on sat. my daddy bought it on fri n it came on sat.
fast. OPEN cat ma. tt's why so fast arrive.
it's BLACK. no other colours were available as there was no MORE stocks available.
the car plate no. is a sight to behold.
it has ONLY 3 numbers.
normally is 4 numbers.
we're the first 400 to be previleged holders of 3-digit plate number.
MUHAHAHA. be jealous.
we're the 309th........... which makes the car number 409.
it's a nissan LAFESTA.
SEVEN-seater family car.
my parents opt out the transparent window on the roof of the car n the GVS or GPS.
aparently s'pore skies r not v starry at night so tt window is redundant.
n the GVS/GPS. my dad noes how 2 read the street directory.
with him around, it's an insult to the GVS/GPS. lol.
oh ya. ONE MORE VERY VERY COOL THING.
the door is AUTOMATIC.
muahaha. i'm being lazy arent i?
with rapidly advancing technology around nowadays wat's wrong wif a little pampering here n there?
i forgot 2 mention the car has an INTELLIGENT key.
it's not lyk any other old-fashioned STUPID buttoned key.
all i hav 2 do is put the intelligent key in my pocket.
press a button on any of the door handle n it's locked or unlocked.
i dun even hav 2 freaking take out the key n press the lock or unlock button.
BUT i hav 2 be at most 1m from the car for it 2 work.
i can also hav the old-fashion way n press the button on the key.

well well, a summary of wat i did recently.
celebrated my grandma's n grandpa's bday.
had steamboat n potluck dinner respectively.
went to look at cutie cousin IAN.
he said hi to me the other day.
n he's only a few months old. lyk 3 or so.
n the other time he pee at his daddy's face. muahaha.
naughty ian.

went out wif a couple of frens to various places to SHOP, SHOP n SHOP.
cant rmb there were who.
cuz my mind is FULL of the chinese drama series i've been watching. lol.

celebrated li ping's bday at the katong outlet of haagen dazs.
with eric working tt night, we had pretty discounts. yeah, THANKS eric.
lee jin, lynn, yvonne, lloyd, charmane n joanne were there too.
had iced cafe latte n tis warm pot of chocolate where we can dip ice creams, cookies, biscuit rolls, banana, green apple n strawberry in it.
the feeling of the chocolate in ur mouth is HEAVENLY.
yummy.
at nearly 10pm, li ping's ice cream cake finally came.
halfway thru i was kinda full orede cuz before tt we ate laksa.
at night couldnt sleep cuz i drank latte which kinda keeps me awake.
argh. bad choice.

also went wif shi hui, li ping, lloyd n eric to chinatown for dinner.
food there was nice.
went there becos we wanted to get a feel of the Mid-Autumn Festival there.
but could feel nth. mayb becos there werent many ppl there.
shopping there sucks.
becos i didnt see anything i would lyk 2 buy so it suck. lol.

went swimming a couple of times at my condo - Changi Rise.
woah. a sight to behold. nice male bods. lol.
once went to TP for the swimTEMASEK thingy wif lee jin.
if lee jin didnt ask me to go i wouldnt. seriously.
i feel weird swimming there, although the male student lifeguards there had nice tanned bods.

shopping wif kheng puay at orchard was fun.
cuz i bought a number of stuff.
mainly a pair of silver pumps n a brown top(finally!).
had fun crossing the roads too. lol. or shld i say jaywalking.

had bbq on sat.
it's called the RUNNERS' bbq.
at least tt's wat Uncle Yeo said.
he's juz one of my daddy's many running frens. lol.
u noe where they get the money for the bbq from?
a fund where whoever is absent tt day for the run will hav 2 fork out 10bucks.
interesting.

cherie's bday juz passed recently so HAPPY belated BDAY CHERIE!

my buddy, mr. gao ever since last mth has went to New York.
it's gd he went there. some of his relatives r there.
poor guy. it's time he took a break from everything n enjoy himself there.
i told him to let down his hair there.
but he seemed hesitant. oh well.

the haze recently is getting into me.
there was once or twice n i can literally smell the smoke n nearly choked on it.
now my throat's kinda itchy.
i think i'm falling sick.
*runs off to drink a bucket of water*

i think it's time for me to go watch the vcds.
of all so far i prefer the prince who turns into a frog to the one i'm watching now.
dunno how 2 convert the chinese title to english.
i still left devil beside me to watch. shall wait patiently for my sis's exams to finish.
*waits for wednesday*
*waiting...........*

2006-09-13T10:04:00.000+08:00

finally had the chance 2 blog.
so on saturday went to singapore expo for lunch.
walked frm 2 exhibition hall to another.
altogether there was lyk FIVE of them.
the food fair, the HALAL food fair, the book fair, the fitness fair AND the john little fair.
Mummy spent lyk abt $150 plus tt day.
dun forget wif my Daddy around k.
so tt's a lot.
normally Daddy would stop Mummy frm spending so much.
mayb he was in a gd mood tt day. LOL.
was so so happy. gotta buy so many things. =D
had steamed crab n a few dishes of veggie n fish for dinner.
YUMMY. there was supposed 2 b chili crab.
BUT tis time the food fair didnt sell the sauce. (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
tis time the food fair is smaller i guess. n not much variety.

then on sun, woke up at 5 plus.
well well, to where??
EAST COAST PARK. for the Healthy Lifestyle thingy la.
Daddy dragged the whole family INCLUDING my maid there. (!!!!!!!)
had to wear tis yellow t-shirt. it fits juz nice. cool.
had 2 do tis silly workout. but it was quite fun actually.
then DPM Wong Kah Seng(or smth lyk tt) n his whoever they r came.
wah lau. cant he wear his shorts properly?? the way he wear is lyk so nerdy.
if u saw the news tt day u'll get wat i mean. EWWW.
anyway i dun think anybody cares. LOL.
at night went to my grandma's house as usual.
played wif Alex, Elaine, Michael and Corliss. cute ppl.
then watched Charlie Angels' Full Throttle. coo angel. and funny too.
esp the part when Cameron Diaz(Natalie) was in the gents. LOL.

on mon, tot i could finally stay at home to rest.
then suddenly mr. gao hua called me n asked me to help him 'escort' his sister to Changi General Hospital(CGH) for her medical check-up.
and he even told me to HURRY UP.
i was lyk "hey, i'm doing u a favour n u ask me 2 hurry up?"
oh well. nvm. his sis was late for her appointment.
i mean lyk it's ok wat.
last time cherie had an appointment n was late too.
but the doc waited 4 her.
was on my way home when cherie called me n asked me out for lunch.
DANG!!!! should hav called earlier so i wouldnt feel so silly walking to n fro eastpoint right.
man, the guys in LP Zone muz think i'm crazy.
i think it's lyk the 3rd time i walk past there. MAN!!
oh well, met cherie at Tampines Mall.
ate Teppenyaki. YUMMY.
really fantabulously heavenly delicious.

took our time 2 eat.
as u noe when i eat, i seldom talk but tt day i was eating n talking at the same time.
gawd. i tried 2 stop. but i juz couldnt.
we juz had too much to talk abt.
hell, i wish time hadnt flew so fast.
it's been ages since i last saw her.
the next thing i noe we hav orede reached simei n r going 2 part ways.
we promised each other we'll go out 4 lunch again one day.
we still hav loads of catching up 2 do.

finally reached home.
tot i could finally spent quality time wif myself.
nv expect Stanley to disrupt everything n literally dragged me down to play badminton wif him.
WHOA. i was kinda grateful he dragged me down wif him.
cuz at the place we were playing, which is the carpark near the 4 storey HDB-like building, there was some guy playing guitar n singing along to it.
goodness. it was SO SO SO SO SO SO SO nice.
i feel tt i can melt right there at the moment hearing him play the guitar n singing.
didnt regret going down. LOL.

tuesday, went out wif sook huan, kam kit n gao hua to ecp.
ate mac then went cycling.
kam kit n gao hua went blading.
they blade so slow la.
everytime ask sook huan n i to slow down.
once in a while kk n gh will try 2 catch up wif us n try to grab hold of us.
u noe for wat la. so they can hav a 'free' ride, where we cycle n all they hav to do is to hold on n blade.
had much fun. it was sunny n sometimes windy.
the weather is so unpredictable.
when there was wind it was as if it's going 2 rain.
the wind juz blew in one direction.
n it's not any normal wind. it's a big STRONG gust of wind.
leading to really high tide n the leaves flying towards us lyk nobody's business.
when it's sunny it's really sunny.
u can literally cook an egg on the path.
after tt, walked to parkway parade. window-shopped for awhile.
then went home. wif a sunburn.
but it's not as bad as the one i got in march when i went to sentosa.
tt time the sunburn was really red. even jingkai had to admit it was so bad, he could understand y i refused to go out wif him the next day. LOL.

i miss my sunshine. <3

2006-09-09T01:33:00.000+08:00

UH HUH so it's the sch holis now.
BEEN HAVING A BLAST tis past week.
CANT IMAGINE I CAN BE SOOOOOO BUSY during the holis.
so my NEW cousin had celebrated his one month.
i noe it's kinda LATE to say tt but u see i havent had much time recently to post it on my blog.
well. time flies. it seems lyk he was born juz ytd.
his name is IAN Koh Jun Wen.
i'm secretly hoping he grows up into a handsome lad. LOL.
he's cute ok. but i forgot 2 take his pic la.
too busy admiring his cute-NESS. n my other 2 lil cousins, Michael n Elaine.
ok. scratch tt. THREE cute lil kids. haha.

so here's the summary of the whole week.
on mon, went to attend gao hua's daddy funeral.
sook huan n i tot we were the 1st to reach there seeing tt the time's 11 in the morning.
BUT jian guang reached there earlier than us.
wat the heck. oh well. he lives near there so it's no surprise he reached there earlier.

played some poker. waited for joslyn. chatted. went to the nearby coffee shop for lunch.
ate dunno wat noodles u call tt. sook huan's treat.
then joslyn came. so jian guang went home. funny.
1 come another 1 go.
went back to the wake there.
played poker AGAIN n gao hua taught me how 2 play mahjong.
once in a while his relatives will come n help me. so kind. haha.
i beginner ma. then jos gaohua n sook huan lyk so pro.
i think i only won twice.
then jiajia sean n kian yee came.
sean saw me playing mahjong n said, "meow, sure a not? u noe how 2 play mahjong? wah. not bad leh. cat oso noe how 2 play."
wah lau. i felt lyk punching him man. always say me.

then tiffany eddie keith aidil yuezhi husseini junjia n another e1 guy came.
yeah 1 whole big grp.
sat there. started chatting.
then there was buffet at 6pm.
then kamkit msged me n asked me 2 go for gh's daddy wake.
so then i knew he was coming at night n staying overnight there if not he wouldnt hav msged me. LOL.

at ard 8 plus sook huan jos n i left the place.
then later i heard tt the time when sh jos n i left, kheng puay ros n wileen juz arrived there.
i didnt noe tt grp of ppl were them!!! LOL.

wednesday, Daddy took leave n brought my bro n i to the ICA building to collect my bro's NEW passport n extend Daddy's passport.
was supposed 2 change my passport pic but the lady said gotta bring TWO photos not one.
DANG! tml hav 2 go back.
then walked 2 bugis 4 lunch.
window-shopped there.
saw so many things i want 2 buy. GAWD!!!
man, i hate the feeling of seeing smth i REALLY REALLY like but cant buy. T.T

thursday, went back to ICA building 2 update my passport photo.
if not ar. the authorities keep complaining la.
change ur pic. change ur pic. irritating seh.
y cannot leave my kindergarten pic there?? so cute wat.
then rushed frm lavander to bedok to meet my hunnie bunnies (hilly, faja n fiqa) n hong yee to watch a movie, Little Man.
i didnt noe it was NC-16.
after the show i knew why it was NC-16.
kinda dirty. LOL. but funny. LMAO. ROFL.
it's damn funny.
took 196 to east coast park.
supossedly to meet sofian n manaf but they werent there.
hilly was lyk hav 2 meet them but dun wan 2 meet them. -.-
so went to mac n ate lunch.
mmmmmm. mcspicy really spicy. teehee.

reached home at ard 6plus then quickly changed n went down to jog wif my sis.
if not for my Daddy i wouldnt b seen running around the estate can.
i dun really lyk running.
cycling would b so much better.

friday, went to mr. poon's house near bedok camp 4 dinner with kheng puay, rosalind, wileen, charlotte, aidil, junjia, quanqi, desmond, hong yee, joanne and melissa.
fiqa backed out last min. all my hunnie bunnies pang seh me. sob.
RICH GUY. private housing neh. THREE stories. THREE 42" LCD.
can i bring home one??? LOL.
man. still got mahjong room. study room. computer room.
and oso POOL TABLE!!! des say the pool table damn nice.
oh ya he oso keep 2 rabbits. so CUTE!!!
reached home at ard 10plus.

lyk my world revolves around her. she's such a M.F. i won't let her pull me down. i'm going 2 get on with life. nothing's gonna stop me.

2006-08-31T23:56:00.000+08:00

YEAH! EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!!
i noe i'm s'posed 2 feel happy n all but i'm not entirely happy only a tiny bit of happy.
i dunno why either. funny.
so right after oc exam met up with lee jin charmane terence n lloyd.
went to tm for lunch.
ate at pizza hut.
it's been ages since i last went pizza hut to eat.
most of time i juz order for takeout.
call n all tt kinda make ur life easier.
it's more convenient than having 2 queue for so bleedin long juz 2 eat pizzas??
LOL. oh well. but i did end up queuing up.
waited 4 dunno how long. FINALLY there's seats for the five of us.
ordered 2 pizzas. the bbq one n pepperoni with stuffed crust.
wooo~ i LOVE the cheese at the side - the stuffed crust.
YUMMY!!!
then faja n fiqa asked me out for a movie.
i didnt bring enuf money out n i felt so u noe if i had 2 borrow money frm them so yeah i told them 2 go ahead.
oh well. i promised them i'll catch a movie wif them on thurs.
I HOPE NTH GOES WRONG. then i'll b able 2 watch it wif them. hehe.

ok then while we were eating, terence lloyd n charmane were chitchatting abt jc facial masks pedicure manicure n piercings.
so lee jin n i were quietly sitting there listening 2 them.
if i told tis 2 fiqa n faja, i bet they wouldnt believe i was actually sitting THERE QUIETLY LISTENING.
oh well. i guess i act differently in front of different ppl.
u can say i hav split personalities?? but tt sounds a lil scary.
ok so i dont hav split personalities. i juz try 2 change myself 2 blend in wif the environment.
sounds lyk i'm a chameleon. oh well. WHATEVER.

anyway seeing them talk i, myself wouldnt want 2 interrupt.
it's kinda better juz 2 sit n listen.
n so tt's wat i do.
BUT i had much fun listening 2 them talk. INTERESTING TALK.
then went 2 the arcade to play.
i dont usually go arcades. dun really lyk those noises plus tt arcade is freaking small.
BUT i had much fun there. playing the dunno wat u call tt la.
halfway thru kheng puay smsed me.
she told me gao hua's daddy passed away ytd. I WAS SO BLOODY SHOCKED AND SADDENED.
wth. i was so speechless. i didnt noe wat 2 say.... OMG.

i didnt wan 2 let my mood affect the others so i pretended nth has happened n continued 2 plaster tt stupid smile on my face.
soon it was nearly six so we headed home.
while walking home i felt a sense of dread.
why muz smth lyk tis happen 2 my best fren???
when i heard the news i couldnt even do anything 2 help him.
all i can do was 2 utter the word SORRY. UTTER!!!
i cannot believe myself.
somemore i felt lyk i was the last 2 noe.
even kheng puay knew it earlier than me.
well mayb he hav his reasons.
he knew i was having my exams n didnt wan 2 let me noe of the bad news. so yeah, mayb.
i wanted 2 noe how he was doing so i msg him.
he said he was doing juz fine.
but i noe deep down he is NOT.
today s'posed to b the day he SHOULD b celebrating.
becos today is the day he, his mummy n sis FINALLY get their SINGAPOREAN CITIZENSHIP.
surprisingly he told me sean n his aunt lent him a helping hand with the stuff.
i mean earlier tis sem he kept complaining why he had 2 end up in the same claz n course as sean.
n now sean is helping him out. ironic isnt it?

at around 8 plus, watched SINGAPORE IDOL.
FINALLY joakim is OUT.
i admit he really DID improve.
when the judges gave negative comments abt his singing he WASNT eliminated.
when majority gave positive feedback, he WAS eliminated.
HOW IRONIC!!!! again. hah.
anyway i lyk joakim's jacket n paul's tie.
jasmine's dressing tt day LOOKS kinda weird.
lloyd said it was simple for a live telecast. MAYB.

then at 10 finally get 2 watch MY LOVELY SAMSOON.
without any worries of not being able 2 study finish for my exam the next day n so.
WHOA. the feeling's juz GREAT. no need 2 bury my head in my books for 7 weeks STRAIGHT.

i hate it when u're lyk tis. acting lyk everything muz b ur way. wtf.

2006-08-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

Wherever You Will Go
By The Calling

So lately, I've been wonderin
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
And between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

[chorus:]
If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high or down low
I'll go wherever you will go
And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

[chorus]

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart and your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

[chorus]

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go

2006-08-15T20:47:00.000+08:00

YUP YUP.
today no lessons.
pipc n oc tut postphone.
tml 8 to 6.
*faints*
mon went to queue for Sam Lee aka LI SHENG JIE's concert in TP tis coming thurs.
YAY!
actually concert's held in auditorium.
BUT due to overwhelming response venue change to Temasek Convention Centre (TCC).
which is lyk so much BIGGER than auditorium man.
according to lloyd auditorium only houses 600 audiences while TCC houses 1500.
COOL. DAMN COOL.
the queue i think frm TP's library extend until AS entrance ar.
tanya chua's concert not so OVERWHELMING leh.
so LUCKY we got the tix.
some more my clique were one of the first few leh.

sigh-ed.
wanted to spend the whole day mugging for exams.
BUT being me i slacked 4 nearly half the day.
DANG!

oh man. starting 2 regret now.
guilty conscience.
die die.
really muz go mug le.
still dun get biochem chapt 7, dow 2 complete tutorial????
hiya wat the heck la, anyhow whack can le.
MUAHAHA.

ciao.

2006-08-14T23:05:00.000+08:00

i've had many dreams,

but at some times,

it seems as though they all have a meaning....

a spirit, and strong feelings......
I dream for that special one,

the one who plays,

and has fun, who understands......

and at times, is there to lend a helping hand.

the one who calls... and catches me when i fall,

the one who doesn't just walk away....

and come back the next day.......

the one who supports me in everything i do and who is awlays the one with the truth.........

but it is only a dream........ or so it seems......

is it true tt dreams nv come true? is it all juz a figment of my imagination?

2006-08-11T23:25:00.000+08:00

oh well. oc quiz 3 is OVER.
although it's over, i still feel lyk studyin.
i dunno y.
mayb i'm juz nv satisfied wif how things turn out 2 be.
imagine u study quite hard for smth, or rather u think u're prepared for it, but when u pen it down, everything becomes a mess.
u juz keep writing n writing, nv looking back at wat u wrote.
after everything is over, u look back n think abt it, n realised u made a very stupid silly mistake.
WHAT THE HELL???!!!!
u knew the answer!! it was stuck somewhere in ur mind.
it has ALWAYS been there.
BUT it turns out u wrote a different thing instead.
tt's the kinda feeling i'm getting right now at tis moment.
uh huh. life still goes on.
we still hav 2 move on.
the world stops for no one.
it jux keeps spinning.
i tell myself it's ok.
juz dont repeat the same mistake over again the next time.
n try 2 do my best the next time round.
BUT can i really do it?? can i??

after quiz, went to kfc for dinner.
then went gor guitar lessons.
not many ppl turned up for it.
only lloyd, li ping, lynn, i n 2 other ppl.
the instructor looked kinda sad.
BUT WHATEVER.
i DONT CARE. anymore.

OH. OH.
the NDP!!
well i sat in the green sector. right in front of where the fireworks came out.
AND the same place where i sat 2 yrs ago.
am i so FATED to sit in the GREEN sector?? LOL.
well. everything i saw tt day was all in the news n papers.
BUT wat u ppl didnt get was the FIRST-HAND experience.
FANTABULOUS. ECSTATIC. EXHILARATING. BEAUTIFUL.
the fireworks was wat i LOVE most.
more better than the one i saw on national day eve.
will put the pics on another time.
during the NDP, my sis n i screamed out hearts out.
especially when we were competing whether the red or white group cheered the loudest.
OBVIOUSLY both ended up wif the same score BECAUSE they want EVERYONE to be happy.
FaIr AnD sQuArE. LOL.
after the parade, decided 2 head home.
was expecting for the worse since the crowd was BIGGER than the one at the esplanade diring the eve.
however, due to the army's excellent crowd controlling methods, we managed to board the train w/o much hassle.
things juz went so smoothly.
they waited 4 the train 2 leave b4 they let the next batch cross the road to take the train.
then they stop the rest n let tt batch board the train first b4 allowing another batch to cross.
tis prevented HUMAN congestion. CLEVER right? haha.

then the next day i went back 2 sch, which was thurs, shi hui, li ping n lloyd claimed tt they saw me on tv.
i was lyk R U SERIOUS??
i think they saw wrongly la.
so i asked them wat colour did i wear to the ndp.
they said RED.
NAH. i wore WHITE.
LOL. i where got so lucky one, get 2 appear on tv. haha.

sometimes life can get so complicating, that u feel lyk giving up.

2006-08-09T14:10:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 41ST BDAY S'PORE!!
HAPPY 19TH BDAY TO MR. GAO HUA!!!!!!

will b going 4 the ndp later. yayy!!
it's been the how many times i've been there??
but i think tis yr will b kinda special.
cuz it'll b the last ndp held at the national stadium b4 it gets demolished n make way for a sports hub or smth.

oh well, had a fantabulous time ytd.
HAHA.
should b out celebrating gao hua's EARLY bday.
but he got last-min stuff 2 attend to so it was cancelled.
i dont really blame him though it's always lyk tt.
cancelling last min n stuff but it's really no choice.
hope everything's fine wif him.
fancy smth lyk tt happened a few days b4 his bday.

went 2 sch as usual ytd for 3hrs(1 to 4pm).
poly isnt lyk ite, jc, pri or sec sch.
NO half-days. NO national day eve celebrations. sigh.
really am jealous of my sis, bro n dar.
they ALL hav half-day BUT i bet they DIDNT enjoy national day eve as much as i do. hehe.
after lessons, took class photo AND clique photo. for the very very 1st time.
LOL. will get them frm lloyd once i see him online.

went to Sakae Sushi at the OUB plaza outlet at Raffles Place for dinner buffet with lee jin, shi hui, li ping, yvonne, lynn, lloyd n eric.
i LOVE the mushi ice-cream most.
it was the last thing i ate there - desert.
overall, it was ok.
ate until i was so bloated.
no wonder lee jin felt lyk vomiting.
lloyd, eric, lynn n yvonne went first 2 catch the fireworks.
then the rest of us, lee jin, shi hui, li ping n me, walked over to the Esplanade there after lee jin felt better.
i tot lee jin was unwell, little did i expect her to b so "kan chiong" n walk soooooo fast.
we 3 were lyk lagging behind n everybody was lyk walking in the same direction, supposedly 2 catch the fireworks.
managed to reach the Fullerton Hotel 2 see the fireworks.
decided to walk down 2 get a better view.
ended up at the edge of the road, which is kinda dangerous.
when the fireworks started, the moment was juz SO MAGICAL.
it's not lyk i've nv seen fireworks b4.
it's juz EVERYTHING around u juz freeze.
EVERYBODY's eyes were fixed on the fireworks.
even the traffic police stopped 2 watch.
the cars stopped moving n impatient drivers stopped pressing their horns.
ppl stream down the road, lyk nobody's business, blocking the road - creating a road block.
it was SINGAPORE's moment. VERY VERY nice indeed.
u should've been there.
it's lyk it MADE u LOVE singapore MORE.
the fireworks, though lasted for 15mins, was DOWNRIGHT SPECTACULAR.
a special feeling when u get 2 watch it with thousands of singaporeans n ur frens juz flows thru u.
it's different frm watching it at the national stadium.
COMPLETELY different. oh man, it's so indescribable.
all of us was lyk so TOUCHED man. ok, i'm babbling again.

after it all ended, we 4 had a bloody difficult time getting our way thru n towards the Esplanade to meet lloyd, eric n lynn.
the crowd was WORSE than CHRISTMAS DAY in orchard.
squeeze here squeeze there.
wah biang eh. buay tahan man.
so hot some more.
s'pore is juz TOO small la.
li ping decided to cut thru using the "live it love it hongkong" way. haha.
we suceeded obviously. LOL.

then the 6 of us, walked 2 the station tgt.
3 words - CROWDED n STUFFY.
decided to go starbucks at Raffles City.
finally get 2 sit down.
then guess who i saw???
J I N G K A I.
how many mths nv see him orede ar??
hmmm.. he didnt change much tt's y i can recognise him. LOL.
at first i couldnt believe it. such a bloody coincidence.
look at him the second time, CONFIRM it's him. haha.
after he went, he msg me n asked if it was me.
i was lyk D-U-H!

left at 11pm i think.
managed 2 squeeze in the train.
reached home at 11plus, nearly 12.
but slept at 1. haha.

2006-08-06T11:13:00.000+08:00

all those words u said,
hurt me so deep.
it juz pierced thru my heart.
u juz left me there 2 bleed. ALL ALONE.
u're so cruel.
u only noe how 2 think abt urself.
how could u say the things u said??
i let u say whatever things u wanna bitch.
but nv expected u 2 say even more hurtful words.
all those words were so obvious it was directed towards me.
they juz came out of ur mouth, rolled off ur tongue so smoothly,
u juz keep hurling offending words at me,
lyk u were trained to do so.
lyk u've said all those for all ur life.

all ur ungentleman-ish actions juz turns me off.
how can u b so petty?
so sensitive?
juz becos of one small tiny insignificant thing tt happened.
u made it sound so BIG.
puh-lese. get a life.
is tis ur only 'excitement' in life??
they're more to life than juz tis.
we shld juz forgive n forget.
why muz u keep dwelling on it?
i didnt do it becos i had my own reasons.
why muz u rub it in?
i dont require u 2 know so much.
why muz u insist on digging in so much?
why??

u r so not my cup of tea.
i tot u could b lyk an older brother to me.
but i was wrong.
i had 2 reject u becos of my own reasons.
it turns out u're not the person i tot u were.
disappointed is wat i feel.
u're so childish.
saying me n criticising me is all u can do.
all these may seem lyk it's my fault,
but then again, i did it becos i had my own reasons.
i'll nv regret wat i did tt day.
to piss u off.
to get rid of u.
get u outta my life.
i'll nv give u another chance even if u come back wif a whole new personality.
becos i've orede seen ur dark side.
i gave u a chance b4 2 prove urself.
but it's such a pity u wasted it all.
i couldnt let myself give u another chance.
u could backstab me anytime.
hurt me back again anytime.
i juz couldnt let myself fall into the same trap again.
i dont wanna b a fool.
i dont wanna b hurt time n time n again by u.
becos of u i cant easily let others in.
becos of u i felt so foolish, so gullible 2 believe whatever u say.
i tot u juz wanted 2 b frens, nv did i expect u 2 want so much more.

i'm so proud on myself 2 b so decisive n insistent for the first time in my life.
so proud i gather up enuf courage to reject u point-blank.
push u out of my life.
now as i look back i only see the past.
tis may b the BIGGEST mistake in my life.
to hav willingly accepted ur so-called "friendship".
u were all out 2 hurt ppl, werent u?
now u've hurt one, pls stop it, n move on.
get on wif life n dont ever hurt anyone wif ur merciless words again.

i've learnt my lesson.
finally i've made my OWN mistake.
never am i going 2 let myself be fooled again.
they say time will heal all wounds.
i really hope it's true.
heal the hole in my heart. tt broken piece.
help me mend it back to whole.

a friendship broken. it was never meant to start. or to begin. never did i imagine for it 2 end juz lyk tt.

2006-08-05T10:56:00.000+08:00

oh ya. i forgot.
fri there was no apel lesson so we had a 2-hr break.
so we had lunch at the foodcourt opposite tp.
then went back to sch n decided to check out the student lounge.
there's pool tables, abt 3, a place where ppl can sit down n watch tv, a room which is empty but has cushions in it(for ppl 2 sleep??) n games.
charmane, lee jin, joanne, eric n lloyd got so engrossed in playing a 'spot a difference game' n thus the whole lot of us were late for our oc lecture.
rushed our way there.
was climbing the stairs halfway so as 2 enter the LT thru the back door, then i saw eric running down.
followed by lloyd n i cant rmb who.
was kinda confused n messed up.
so i juz followed them.
then i heard frm them tt mr alvin poh was confiscating students' matrix card frm latecomers.
wah. heng ar.
we were contemplating whether 2 enter the LT since lloyd saw alvin poh enter the staff room or juz skip the whole lecture.
so in the end we decided 2 enter the LT.
no teacher.
whole LT was so noisy.
couldnt understand wat the lecturer was talking most of the time.
the disadvantages of being in a linked-up LT.
i didnt noe there's such a thing in poly.
i tot even if u're late 4 a lecture it's ok.
since attendance is not taken..........
i tot tis only happens in secondary schools.
oh well. OLD rules still apply i guess.

2006-08-05T09:54:00.000+08:00

UPDATED DUE TO POPULAR DEMAND!!

so on thursday the most funniest thing happened.
li ping, lloyd, shi hui n i were walking towards the bus stop.
we were happily talking until the bus came n shi hui had 2 part ways wif us.
so lloyd, still in his talkative mode, turned around n talked 2 shi hui abt smth.
he thought tt the bus would stop in front of him n when he turn around the bus door will b right in front of him.
nv expected when he turned back, he asked kinda loudly, where's the bus door.
tt was the 'joke of the day' AND the MOST STUPIDEST question i've ever heard.
i mean lyk he didnt notice tt most of the ppl r walking to the left for the bus door?
LOL.
we board the bus n sat at the back.
we kept laughing n laughing abt tt incident.
li ping said smth abt lloyd wanting 2 hug the bus wheel or smth.
then it was my turn 2 part ways wif them.
after i alighted n waved gdbye 2 them i walked 2 the mrt station.
then li ping called me n told me lloyd was still laughing abt my specs.
WHATEVER.

i seriously need a pair of new RECTANGULAR specs.
but my mummy jus refuses 2 lemme buy a new one. =(
how come she can spend 2k plus on my sis's braces n a hundred or so on her frameless specs BUT refuses 2 spend juz only a hundred plus on a NEW pair of specs for me??????
it duzn hav 2 b frameless. all i wan is juz a rectangular normal specs.
SIGH. call me jealous of my sis by saying tt.
i admit. i wont deny. i AM jealous.
so wat if those stuffs were bought mths ago??
MTHS AGO i told my mummy i wan a new pair of specs.
SIGH.

friday, had pipc quiz, li ping, lloyd, charmane n shi hui were late 4 the quiz.
i heard frm eric tt they were caught in sum kinda traffic jam.
reminds me of the time when i was in sec sch.
luckily my dad drove me 2 sch or else i'll b stuck in the bus wif cherie in the traffic jam n b late 4 sch.
yeah my dad saw the jam so he turned back n took a detour.
i made it in sch nearly late. i could feel my heart pumping pretty hard.
so afraid i would get demerit points. luckily tt day was an exception cuz there was a traffic jam.
tt was the ONLY time ppl who were late were not punished.
speaking of it, i kinda miss cherie n her crappy talks.
it's been ages since i last talked 2 her.

back to pipc.
the paper was DIFFICULT.
i wasnt even sure wat i was writing.
it's lyk all i anyhow whack one. die.
i juz kept writing crap until the time's up.
if i pass, i'm more than satisfied.
if i get 15 n above, it'd b a miracle.

later in the day, i heard frm li ping tt ytd after i alighted, the seat lloyd was sitting on came out n he nearly fell.
IMAGINE IT!! it was so damn funny.
i LAUGHED my heart out. GOODNESS.
ok mayb it's not so funny but i hav gd imagination.
u can ask my sis abt tt, no doubt.
she can tell me one small thing.
the images will start forming in my mind n "transform".
n i'll end up having laughing fits until my stomach hurts.

in the evening, went 2 tm wif lloyd, li ping n lynn for dinner.
we felt so pathetic standing up eating.
ANYWAY it was fun.
oh n b4 tt we saw tis very cute little girl.
her eyes were lyk so BIG. so CCUUUTTEEE!!
then we went back 2 sch 4 guitar lessons.
ahhh. the instructor taught us how 2 FINGER.
when he said tt the 4 of us started laughing.
FINGER??? why cant he use other nice-sounding words?? LOL.

i felt so bad tt i couldnt turn up 4 the early celebration of gao hua's bday.
i REALLY CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!!!
how can i miss my BEST fren bday??
why muz tis early celebration on FRIDAY??
WHAT KINDA FREN AM I??
to hav miss all tis??
hong yee called me n i told her i couldnt make it.
she told me 2 go after my guitar lessons.
BUT it'd b soooo late at night.
i'd prolly reach pasir ris park at nearly NINE.
who in the world would wan 2 wait 4 me 2 come at nine??
SIGH. SOB SOB.
i really think i'm losing grip of all my old frens.
sometimes i juz feel lyk reminding them even though i'm busy n couldnt find the time 2 sms or talk 2 them, they wld always still b in my mind n heart.
i would NEVER forget them. ALL OF THEM.

later in the afternoon, i'm going out wif my sis. FINALLY.
MUAHAHA. i'm going 2 buy a new bag.
tt is if i find one i REALLY REALLY LOVE.
=)

2006-07-30T13:37:00.000+08:00

TRUST is such a simple word.
yet it is so hard to gain.
and so difficult to comprehend.
the meaning of it is so profound.
when u say u trust someone, do u actually noe the true meaning of trust?
do u really mean it when u say, 'i trust u'?
there r quite a number of deifinitions of trust, a thousand kinds of trust.
Family trust, friends trust, siblings trust, etc.

Trust, as Cambridge defines, is to hav belief for confidence in the honesty, goodness, skill or safety of a person, organization or thing -- the belief that u CAN trust someone or something.

It takes years to actually build up the trust and completely trust a person without a doubt.
That's smth special shared among couples who've been married for YEARS.
BUT the number of yrs put into isnt the main element to TRUST.
it's the thought tt counts.
the sincerity put in, to convince the other party tt u're worthy of his/her trust -- trustworthy.

However, no matter how much sincerity u've shown, effort u've put it,
it only takes suspicion, not proof, to lose it,
the trust u've put in so much effort, sincerity, u name it, will b VANISHED.
gone down the drain.
gone in a matter of minutes, or even seconds.
DESTROYED would b an extreme.
Trust is like the soul. It never returns once it is gone.

If a person is lucky to hav such a forgiving partner or friend,
u'll b lucky not to be named or known as untrustworthy in the latter's mind.
Nevertheless, no matter how much u try to gain back the trust the person once shared with his/her partner/friend, he/she will may not succeed.
it will nv b as strong as last time.
mayb it will come back stronger, i dont know.
but i've learnt or rather the bottomline is tt trust takes years to build, yet seconds to shatter.

There's another kinda trust, a trust tt's indescribable.
sometimes there is that one person that you know you can trust.
it's an unspoken bond that will never be broken.

so how does one show trust??
lemme tell u a story,
A little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.
The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter: "Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don't fall into the river."
The little girl said: "No, Dad. You hold my hand."
"What's the difference?" Asked the puzzled father.
"There's a big difference," replied the little girl.
"If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go."
In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.
So hold the hand of the person whom you love rather than expecting them to hold yours...

The Good Trust
Carmen: How come it's easy for us to be mad at the people we trust?
Tibby: Because you know that they'll love you no matter what.
- The Sisterhoof of the Travelling Pants

The Bad Trust
The biggest risk is trusting people and the biggest crime is taking selfish advantage of that trust.

Have you ever wonder why some ppl find it hard to trust the ppl around them?
Its hard to trust people when anyone you ever opened your heart to let you down.
People ask me why it's so hard to trust people, I ask them why its so hard to keep a promise?

Have you they wonder why some ppl dont trust anyone anymore?
maybe you should think a little...
it's all because all the people that she/he loved once lied to her/him.

Have you ever wonder why some ppl r afraid to trust?
They are afraid he/she may be deceived if they trust too much, but they will live in torment if they don't trust enough.

Have you ever wonder who they blame when sum1 lied or betrayed them?
They would say it's not their fault, it was his/her for believing every word the other party said.

Have anyone ever bother to know what's going thru their mind?
never trust anyone or anything, nothing ever turns out the way you expect it to. always expect the opposite because its not going to happen the way you want whether you pray and hope for it or not.

Trust is non-negotiable. It's either there or it's not.

2006-07-29T12:56:00.000+08:00

YAY! hap test IS OVERRRRRR.
test only not exam.
but i still feel very happy. hehe.
BECOS it's lyk a load is lifted frm my shoulders n i feel light.
i feel lyk I CAN FLY!!!! lalalalala.
actually the real reason is tis whole week i didnt hav the time to play maple.
it's lyk suddenly i'm so busy.
no maple=busy. get it?
ahhh. wat eunice darling said is right. *smiles*
guitar lessons DO take up much of my time.
but it's when i kinda release my stress.
same goes to playing maple.
i see playing maple as a form of stress relief.
but some ppl juz wont believe it for real.
they think i'm addicted to it.
EXCUSE ME. u're NOT me.
u DONT KNOW how i think.
so STOP acting as if u noe EVERYTHING.
and tt no matter what u're ALWAYS right.
i hate it when u're lyk tt.
it's lyk u're trying to prove tt u're PERFECT. *pukes*

ok. so on wednesday afternoon i had a NEW cousin!!!!!
YAYNESS!!!!!!!
he's a BOY. my grandma muz be over the moon. haha.
i bet my cousin's cute. VERY VERY cute.
CUTER than joakim.
but cannot compare him wif joakim la.
all babies ARE naturally cute.
PLUS the age gap. haha. dream on mal.
my cousin's name still UNKNOWN. LOL.
all i noe is tt he's a boy, he's born in KK n he's my mother's brother's wife's son. haha.
KK=kamkit. VERY funny.
anyway he's born in the SAME hospital as my sis. NO FAIR.
why not NUH?????!!!!
oh well. nvm. at least i got a new cousin 2 play wif.
when i get 2 see him i'll pinch his cheeks n play peekaboo wif him. hehe.
ahhh. now michael n elaine hav a new play companion.
MUAHAHAHA. let us ALL go disturb the lil baby n not let the little kids pester me.

at night, went to a restaurant in eastpoint for dinner.
smth canton restaurant. delicious. palatable. lips-smacking. whatever.
so wat's the special occasion???
early celebration. BIRTHDAY celebration for my beloved MUMMY!
she's 41 tis yr. same age as singapore. hoho.
my mummy v clever. came out juz in time 2 witness singapore turn independant 1 mth later. lol.
sigh. reach home fell asleep. didnt get to study for hap.
felt so bad. cuz i havent even started n do u noe how much stuff one has to memorise for hap???
i've studied pure bio before. so i noe wat's it lyk. at least hap is better than pure bio in sec sch.

my mummy actual bday is on friday, 28th july.
familiar eh?
it's also rosalind's bday.
coincidence.
very long nv see her le. the last time i saw her was when i banged into her n kp at bugis.
REALLY long time.
abt 1 mth ago.
haiz. miss her kheng puay n wileen man. n fiqa n faja. n gaohua. n hilly. n the list goes on.
it's lyk i hav so little time for my 'old' frens. DIE.
holis muz really catch up wif them man.
it's sure is going to b a really busy holi. haha.
oh well. it's a little too late. but i still wan 2 wish rosalind a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! on my blog. since i cant do it face to face.
i heard kp they all r making a video for her. no idea wat is it. BUT i hav a part in it. LOL.

n i think last fri was my maid's bday.
thanks aunty rhea for everything u've done for me n everybody else in the family.
i appreciate it. though i dont show it duzn means i dont.
MUACKS. lalalala.

LOL. seems lyk tis wk's birthdays wk.
so many birthdays.

2006-07-22T15:33:00.000+08:00

ok. continue frm ytd's entry.
then on thurs, sum1 followed me home.
i was so FREAKED out man.
i mean i felt sum1 walking behind me but i tot mayb tis person lives sumwhere near me or wat so yeah i continued walking.
then i went into the lift, he oso went in.
ok, BREATHE in BREATHE out.
mayb he lives same block.
nvm.

when the lift reached my floor, i was so relived man.
i was lyk PHEW! finally.
then u guess wat he did??
he showed me his hp.
i was lyk HUH? WHY THE HELL HE SHOWED ME HIS HP FOR???
so i juz kinda stared at the hp.
i quickly walked out of the lift n was hoping the lift wld close so i can run to my unit n locked myself.
i feel safer at home. esp wif my maid around.

but it didnt close.
in fact he walked out of the lift n intro himself.
i gave him tt o.O look.
then he apologised 4 following him.
i juz brushed it aside n actually deep down i mind A LOT!
oh ya. u noe why he show me his hp??
becos he ot type smth in his hp.
n tt is - "hi. can i get 2 noe u?"
-.- i mean cant he juz ask me tt face 2 face???
instead of following n freaking the hell out of me.

then on fri i had my math n oc quiz.
oc ar. haiz. sure fail one. dun need 2 say. no confidence.
math ar. DOUBLE sigh. i didnt FINISH!!! the last question i left 1 more part.
i orede find the unknown left calculating the total output.
SOB SOB. T.T
then at night had guitar lesson.
learnt a few new notes.
i keep forgetting which is which man. shit.
P.S tt guy who keeps boasting he has a sexy voice has a corrupted mind.
he keep disturbing lynn n the lab guy.
poor lynn.

2006-07-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

tis few days got a number of quizzes coming up plus i'm lazy so i didnt really update my blog much.
so i shall summarize the 'highlights' of the wk.
stuff tt duzn always happen everyday.

so, on tues, i took bus 69 to sch as usual.
when the bus reached the 2nd or 3rd stop the bus was already crowded wif MOSTLY tp students.
so it's kinda difficult for other passengers to squeeze in as it was already packed to the door UNLESS a group gets off.
UNFORTUNATELY there's tis bloody short fugly demanding faggart who insisted on getting on the bus.

so she kinda CHOSE to suffer wif the others.
i mean she can lyk choose to squeeze wif the others, get off the bus n wait 4 another or take a taxi right??
BUT she bleedin CHOSE to get on the bus n expected the already squashed tp students to move in some more juz to make space for her big fat butt.
n guess wat she say??
she said, "EH u all students leh. STUDENTS!! not old ah ma old ah gong."
so the bus driver had no choice 2 ask them to move in some more even though he can orede see tt the students behind were already squeezing lyk hell.

BUT tt faggart keep giving tt fucked up look n i swear her face was so black tt u can smell smth burning n so long tt it extended frm tampines till jurong.
i think the driver took pity on her or wat n said, "ma'am do u wan 2 wait 4 another bus?"
she said, "no no i already tap my card."
"it's ok i can refund u the fare."
it's an option LAID out RIGHT in front of her BUT she declined.
she STILL chose to squeeze.
STUBBORN! really stubborn.
serves her right if she steps on dog poo on her way 2 work.

anyway when the bus driver asked her if she wants to get off n take another i bus i was thinking, "HAHA. even the bus driver wants to chase u out of his bus."
but mayb the driver had gd intentions on saying tt.
LOL.

so when she finally managed to squeeze up the bus, she STILL was NOT satisfied AT ALL!
DEMANDING OLD HAG!
she kept mumbling n threatening man!
she said, "I going 2 write 2 ur human resourceS." and blah blah.
i mean lyk HELLO??? it's broken ENGLISH!
u wan 2 write 2 MY human resourceS???
write by all means u will so NOT get a job!
becos YOUR means OURS not tp's.
becos human resourceS is where u WRITE to, to get a job.
becos she didnt state tt she's going 2 file a complaint she juz said WRITE!
PLUS human resourceS with the 'S'???
it's called the human resource department. note the S pls.
sigh. her english is SOOOO terrible n yet she wants 2 WRITE to OUR HR??!!
goodness!
if she wants to complain she shld at least brush up her english b4 complaining so ppl will take her seriously!

if there's no such a word called 'respect' duzn exist in tis world or in the dictionary, i swear the tp students would hav beaten her up into a pulp.
at least we're all showing respect 2 her by not talking back n trying our very best to squeeze in leh.
but she still over there mumbling n mumbling lyk nobody's business.
wat a nuisance man.
only noe how 2 contribute 2 the noise pollution caused by the bus's engines.
HAIZ... really pity her man.
old hag orede. nobody cares abt her liao. LOL.

2006-07-16T23:03:00.000+08:00

JOAKIM is VERY VERY EXTREMELY cute.
u noe tt joakim in singapore idol?
yeah. tt's the one.
he's cute, aint he??
drools.
anyway in tis wk's spectaculars,
i LOVE the songs sang by Johnathan and Paul Twohill.
Johnathan sang 'Wherever You Will Go' by The Calling.
Paul sang 'Superman' by Five for Fighting.
i noe Joakim won't get far in the competition.
his vocals aren't VERY good compared to Johnathan's and Paul's.
GO Johnathan n Paul!

i support Gayle too.
she's pretty n sweet-looking.
she has a nice voice too.

i DONT really lyk matilda.
though she has a SUPER-STRONG voice.
but she looks damn SCARY n sounds SCARY too.
bottomline is she's SCARY.
she overdoes it.
shivers me timbers.

anyway i juz helped my fren complete a survey.
i'm such a helpful girl arent i??
hehe.
GUESS wat's it on???
TEENAGE PREGNANCIES!!!
..............
oh well. i can handle it though.
it's as EASY as abc n 123.
how do i feel if i'm pregnant?
what do u think of teenage prenancies?
what do u think of teenage mothers?
at what age do u wish 2 hav a child?
do u hav any frens who hav encountered pregnancy at my age?
EASY. chicken feet.

bought yvonne's bday pressie tis week.
cant rmb when.
pressie was shared wif lee jin, li ping, shi hui, lloyd, eric, yu xuan, terence, fauzi, viyond, benjamin, joanne and charmane.
the pressie is a TASMANIAN DEVIL!!!
not a tasmmanian tiger, lloyd.
LOL. dumb. DUMB. D-U-M-B!
always say ppl dumb right?
sigh. cartoon characters oso cannot spell correctly.
tsk tsk. dumb. haha.

oh ya. on tues went to watch re-cycle with gao hua n sook huan.
it's kinda gross esp the aborted babies part.
the sound is ear-piercing man.
the movie's abt abandoned stuffs being sent to an abandoned place.
there's tombstones which no one visits, aborted babies, spoilt n abandoned toys, old theme parks, ruined houses, etc.
overall the ending was quite touching.
it made me cry.
the main actress aborted her baby.
now the baby has sorta grown up in tt abandoned place n wants to know why her mother aborted her.
VERY touching.
tt gao hua keep making fun of me man.
he say tt time i watch silent hill wif him, i cry.
watch windstruck, i cry.
watch re-cycle wif him, i also cry.
EARGHHH!
cant help it right. hurmph.

2006-07-10T20:19:00.000+08:00

FRANCE LOST!
ITALY WON!

saddddddddd. sob sob.
i SO want france 2 win! ARGH!
yeah i woke up at 2 in the morning to watch the World Cup.
or shld i say i was woken up by shouts frm the opposite block.
my alarm rang at 2am.
i tot mayb i shld sleep awhile longer,
since it was only the first-half, i figured there wont b such early goals.
BUT hell, i was WRONG! damn!
so i missed the 1st goal scored by zidaine in the 7th minute.
HOWEVER upon hearing them, i still continued sleeping, my body refusing 2 get out of bed, my mind begging my body 2 move.
THEN i heard another string of cheers, tt was when i JUMPED out of bed n RUSHED to the living room SWTICHED on the tv n DAMN i missed it AGAIN!
23rd minute scored by some italian guy.
couldnt b bothered wif their names cuz i WANTED france 2 win.
it was a tie.
thus the game was extended to 100+ mins.
still a tie.
penalty shots.
3-5.
ITALY won! arghhhhh!

well well. i cant deny tt it was certainly a FANTABULOUS game.
tis is the 2nd time i watched one of the world cup matches LIVE.
the 1st was France VS Portugal.
tis time round the players played wif all their heart, running lyk there's no tml, defending as if it was their last hope n fouling as if revenge is sweet.
OK. mayb tt was a little TOO exaggerating.
but WHATEVER.

of all my NEARLY 17 yrs of existence on earth, i've nv been tis enthu abt the World Cup.
i'm growing up. mayb.
it's the ppl around me. mayb.
it comes once every 4 yrs. DEFINITELY.
4 yrs ago, i was 12 going on 13.
my sis n bro were young.
we didnt noe much abt the FIFA World Cup.
so mayb tt's the reason why. LOL.

MAN!!! how could tt bleedin referee give zidaine a red card??!!
amazing how much impact a pathetic red card made of paper/plastic or whatever is it can do.
GOODNESS GRACIOUS!!
it's zidaine LAST world cup! LAST!!
and he didnt manage 2 complete the FINAL game!
BECAUSE of an idiotic RED card!
imagine how much it means for zidaine 2 lead France to win the World Cup??
sigh. DOUBLE sigh.

2006-07-09T10:01:00.000+08:00

ADULTS!!!!
they NEVER admit their mistakes!
NEVER!!!
mayb deep down inside they admitted BUT they DONT show it!
WHY?
simply becos their egos r so HIGH up in the sky.
they SELDOM/NEVER apologise.
is it tt difficult 2 apologise??
or juz say 'i'm sorry'??
huh? huh?
screw them all.

wondering y i said tt?
apparently RECENTLY i was on bus 69.
on my way 2 sch in the morning.
YEAH rush hour n so. loads of ppl.
UH HUH. not tt ppl bang me or wat.
BUT the problem lies wif tis FEMALE bus driver.
i was waiting 2 tap my ez-link being an honest student who pays her bus fares.
n i was ACCUSED of not tapping my freaking ez-link???????????!!!
FUCK her man.

i told her TRUTHFULLY tt i hav orede tapped my ez-link.
even idiots can SEE tt i had orede tapped.
she didnt want 2 believe me u noe.
n told me 2 take out my ez-link.
the more i shld tell her 2 GO TO HELL.
she tapped n REALISED tt stupid green thingy state there, "ENTRY OK".
she still wouldnt wan 2 believed so she stood up n placed her bloody face right in front the screen.
"ENTRY OK"!!!!!!!!!!!!! then she was satisfied.
returned my ez-link n didnt apologised.
she juz started driving.

WTF. OI! wat kinda egoistic FEMALE bus driver r u??
didnt ur mother teach u 2 apologise when u did smth wrong when u were young???
duzn mean u're older now u can put aside all these.
wat a FREAK!
so i juz rolled my eyes n made a face in front of her stuck up n fucked up face.
i was so PISSED off man.
if i havent had any respect for the BLIND n ELDERLY(referring to her ONLY), i would hav gave her a beautiful BIG punch right at her face n break her nose.
she SUCKS man. BIG TIME.

it was tt DAMN guy before me k.
even idiots can see tt it was HIM.
tt STUPID error sound came frm him.
HIS BLOODY EZ-LINK CARD'S EXPIRED OR SMTH.
n he still hav the cheek 2 use it.
i HATE him man.
i was SO embarrassed man.
i was WRONGED n she didnt bloody bother 2 apologised for mistaking me.
MOTHER PIG!

2006-07-08T23:43:00.000+08:00

i dont understand y in the world would a girl let strangers see her so called 'coffee shop'.
if she duzn noe how 2 freaking close her legs,
then y wear MINI skirts????
WHY?
duzn she feel a tiny bit embarrassed when she sees guys in the opposite direction staring at her there??
or rather duzn she feel uncomfortable??
no? gawd, seriously, tt girl really needs sum1 to actually go up n tell her directly in her face tt her panties r PINK!
oh, n when sum1 tells her tt, n if tt sum1 is a girl,
tis poor honest straightforward girl gets called a bitch.
HELLO???!! she has juz saved tt stupid girl frm further embarrassement!
man, sometimes i really dunno wat's wrong wif girls lyk her.
i mean i'm not trying to tell all girls out there 2 wear conservative clothes n cover each n every part of their bodies completely.
tt's TOO extreme. plus singapore's weather is so damn hot.
u'll b toast if u continue wearing tt 24/7.
wat i'm trying 2 say is tt if girls wanna wear MINI skirts,
first learn how 2 sit properly!!!!!!!
close their bloody legs.
if u girls still think tt wont do it, the PLEASE cross ur legs n sit lyk a LADY.
dont go around showing ppl ur polka dots or teddy bear panties can.
it's damn gross as if u're damn proud abt it. GOODNESS!
YUCKS! EWWWWW! PUI!! GROSS!!

wanna show ur ________? become a model n pose for magazines lyk FHM! but tt's provided u've got wat it takes. THE X-FACTOR. if not show it 2 ur mirror.

p.s. i'm not either of the girls mentioned above. dun b mistaken.

2006-07-02T16:18:00.000+08:00

recently, so many things hav happened.
time flies so fast.
dat i find it hard to keep track of it.
it's lyk i wan to move on but smth inside me dont want to.
the earth keeps spinning,
like an apple whirling sliently in space.
days came and nights went.
the world did not wait 4 me. no one did.
life continues.
while i juz sit here and see life past me by blindly.
i wan to do smth.
but my body refuse to move.
i wan to walk but my legs dont.
it's lyk i'm being controlled.
it is playing mind games wif me.
but i dont know wat it is.
it's haunting me lyk a door tt keeps revolving in a half-forgotten dream.
i beg u to stop hiding.
give me my freedom n set my mind free.
i need to find wat tis is.
i want to noe wat's stopping me.
cuz i cant stand it anymore.
i feel lyk giving up.
but i cannot let the ppl ard me down.
wat else can i do?
i can only put up a brave front.
to show tt i can make it.
tt nth can stop me.
i noe it's not true.
i make myself think i can.
i refuse to admit.
n i hate it!
wat is wrong wif me?
why is all tis so fucking complicating??
why? why? why?
why do i keep asking myself why?
my mind is lyk a snowball rolling down a neverending or beginning on an ever spinning reel,
lyk a carousel tt's turning running rings around the moon.
all i wan 2 do to stop thinking!
stop thinking abt him.
stop thinking abt everything else n anything.
brain, u little piece of shit, STOP! i said STOP!
i really mean it.

will i b able to overcome it all?

2006-07-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

everytime i've made up my mind or prolly planned wat 2 write,
may it b an essay, or an assigment, or tis - a blog entry,
i'll tend to b at a loss when i'm asked to pen it down or typed it out.
ok mayb nobody ASKED me to type my blog entries here,
but yeah i still cannot rmb wat i wanna write in here.

i mean lyk before tis i had in mind wat 2 write abt here,
but i cant seem 2 put it out properly.
the ideas, the words r all in my brain. jumbled up.
hell, how i wish my brain is automatically systematic.
so tt it helps me figure things out n sort of classify it properly for me.
in tt way i wont b one of those ppl who say, "i need time n space to figure myself out."
cuz it kinda makes life difficult n complicated.
tell me if i'm wrong though.

sigh. tis is really REALLY bad.
why? why does tis always happen to me?
is tt why there's such a subject called psychology?
n a career/job called a psychologist?
so tt they could help ppl understand y they're feeling the way they're feeling at tt moment.
n also help they, themselves understand themselves better.
if learning psychology can really make myself understand more of myself i really REALLY wan 2 study psychology.
tt is y i pray hard tt next sem i'll b able 2 take psychology for my CDS.
it's my first choice k.
i really am desperate to get in.
so i'll b able 2 understand the human mind.
or how the human brain works.
sounds kinda impossible eh?
HUMAN mind! it's so complicated.
nobody will b able 2 understand it.
but hey, i'm willing to give it a try.
as long as i'm able 2 figure out y i'm feeling lyk tt at times,
y ppl feel lyk tt, so on n forth, n get myself out of tis stupid unanswerable mess.

tis mess is so damn fucking irritating i tell ya.
it goes round n round lyk a circle.
it's neverending. tt wat's make it SO irritating.
n if u juz leave it there,
it either gets worse or it REMAINS there.
it juz refuses to get out of my sight, my life n my mind.
sometimes it disappears but it appears again,
either worse or the same.
it juz bleedin' refuses to disappear once n for all!

tis mess is lyk a sedimentary rock.
u noe those rocks u learn in lower sec geography?
it keeps accumulating n accumulating.
n in the end i'm still unable 2 understand myself.
or find out the root of the friggin' problem.

i cant seem 2 figure myself out or understand myself wholly.
i cant seem 2 do things n make it turn out how i wan it 2 b.
it's lyk watever i do is all fucking useless.
u noe useless, of NO use AT ALL!

mayb for once i shouldnt give a damn abt it n see how it goes.

ok. forget it. i think wat i wrote duzn makes sense.
i dun think i noe wat i'm writing.
oh whatever. all tis is crap. REAL crap.
hiya mayb i shld delete tis la.
BUT i put much effort into writing tis leh.
wah lau eh. i give up. tryin 2 explain all tis.

2006-06-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out wif leslie to city hall there..
walked to suntec to watch just my luck..
he so early call me out le so go watch early movie lo..
so early until only got 4 ppl including us in the theatre..
haha.. the popcorn, drinks n movie ticket all he pay one..
so gd hor.. haha..
movie ended at ard 2 plus..
walked to the esplanade..
saw his sec sch fren there.. he quite friendly la..
i lyk the way he pronounced my name.. haha
sat there, chat chat, enjoyed the scenery n the wind..

after tt walked to marina square..
climbed abt 36 steps.. haha
i noe i v bo liao la.. still go n count the steps.. haha
nth 2 do ma.. oh well..
walk here walk there.. cannot buy anything cuz NO money liao..
sob sob.. muz resist the temptation!!!
oh man.. sch reopen i muz save n save so can go there buy the clothes i wan.. haha..
then leslie bought a wallet frm wallet shop..
yeah i lyk the wallets there..
the words on the wallets r so cool..
the design oso quite nice..

then went to raffles city..
wah lau.. i LOVE those precious memories figurines!
SOOOOOO cute!!!!!!!~ oh man..
the price oso v nice.. haha..
at ard 5 plus.. managed to squeeze into the train home..
5 plus only leh.. so many ppl rushing home 2 eat dinner meh??
oh well.. then he sent me 2 my void deck.. so sweet right?
haha.. reached home.. took a bath..
then went kfc for our dinner.. since my daddy went out for dinner last night..
so we decided to eat out too..

after dinner went to watch miss singapore world at eastpoint mall..
the beauties oso not really beautiful leh.. haha..
some them not really pretty lo.. dunno why they enter..
i think the indians r more prettier than the most of the chinese who enter lo..
haiz.. i think they enter not only cuz they're beautiful but becos of their legs, body n height lo..
oh well.. i lyk the indian lady who won the most dazzling/beautiful eyes..
her eyes r SOOOOOO nice man! wow-ser..
reached home at ard 9 plus..
sat at the sofa n start watching show after show until 11 plus..
then went 2 sleep..
later going my grandma's house again..
MY CUTE LIL CUZZIES!!! HERE I COME!!!
HAHA..
but first muz bring my lil bro to the barber first..
he's looking more n more lyk a girl.. LOL

2006-06-23T22:48:00.000+08:00

thurs:
went to east coast wif fiqa, faja n liyana..
liyana n i went for fiqa n faja for who noes how long man..
they were LATE.. VERY LATE indeed..
ate lunch at the mac there..
the burger got loads of veggie man..
lyk the veggie no need money one..
after tt we rented 4 bikes for 2 hrs..
it was quite fun la.. got a tan too.. heheee
too bad hilly cant go.. haiz..
if not it would be even more fun..
2 weeks nv see her le..
nvm.. sch going 2 reopen so can almost everyday see her..
n on alternate fridays SURELY can see her.. haha
played ball on the grass..
fiqa's beach ball so cute! haha
after tt sat at the water breaker n enjoyed the wind..
SOOOO nice! ahhhh
then went 2 mac n bought drinks..
damn thirsty man..
i drank chocolate milkshake, faja ate ice-cream, fiqa drank banana milkshake n liyana drank smth i cant rmb wat it is..
reached home at ard 7..

today:
went 2 escape wif gh, sh n jos..
quite boring la.. only a few rides..
revolution was the most scary one..
the first time i took wif jos it turned one 360degrees round..
but the second time i took wif sh it turned THREE 360degrees rounds..
DAMN scary man.. feels lyk u're going to drop anytime..
the least scary one was flipper..
but when it goes down n makes a near turn it's kinda thrilling..
the pirate boat was ok..
tried seating the 1st row, 2nd, third n 4th but didnt hav a chance 2 try the last row..
the tree trunk in the water thingy was ok....
except the 2nd time i sat wif jos i nearly slipped frm my seat..
i was lyk thank goodness it landed in the water soon..
LASTLY is the gold cart..
wah i tell u ar the motor damn stink man..
u breathe it in can choke on it man..
had lunch at burger king.. sh's treat.. haha..
she's so gd.. i still owe her money but she still insist on treating me..
reached home at 7plus..
i looked into the mirror n examined my sunburnt..
i realised i became rudolph the red-nosed reindeer.. haha..

2006-06-21T21:08:00.000+08:00

today went cycling n blading wif gaohua, sook huan n joslyn at pasir ris park..
i noe pasir ris park??!! BORING!!
i wan 2 go east coast BUT they lazy la..
PLUS dat mr gaohua made 3 girls, which is us, wait 4 lyk half an hr..
when he reached tampines mrt station, i punched him on his arm n kept saying him..
he MADE ME wait!!! how could he??!!
he knows i hate waiting!
so he said he would treat me n sook huan drinks n pay 4 the bicycle rental..
at least he was sorry!
so we cycled for lyk 1 hr then walked 2 downtown east 4 lunch..
sook huan treated me to lunch..
yeah.. i'm DAT poor now.. haha..

after lunch walked back to pasir ris park..
rented 2 pair of blades..
n sook huan n i started learning how 2 blade..
i fell down TWICE on my butt AGAIN!
damn! my butt still havent recover frm last tues ice skating!
n now it's hurt again!
will i ever b able 2 sit properly again??!!
sob sob.. poor butt..
it was ALL gaohua's fault!
the first time HE made me fall..
n he landed on me! instead of i land on him!
and the second time he blade too fast n suddenly stop..
i was unable to stop n ended up falling on my butt again..
only tis time the impact's greater..
ouch.. double ouch..

after tt sat at the beach for awhile n went home..
reached home juz in time to watch green forest..
OWEN ROCKS!! he's jus SOOOO cute!
SUSAN SUCKS!! she's juz too scheming n insufferable!
oh well whatever.. it's juz a show..
looking forward to tml's episode.. =)

you're my sunshine, my only sunshine. u make me happy, when the skies r gray. u nv notice how much i love u. pls dont take my sunshine away.

2006-06-20T20:40:00.000+08:00

went to catch runaway vacation wif my family at suntec..
yeah my daddy n mummy specially took leave to celebrate my sis bday in advance..
her bday's today actually..
r.v was okay..
kinda funny BUT not as funny as she's the man..
tampons r gd 4 stopping bad nosebleeds?? wth..
tt's she's the man for u..
r.v is for families..
the father realises tt money isnt everything n decided 2 spend more quality time wif his family..
n the rest u go watch urself.. haha..

after tt, went to joaquim..
had porridge buffet there..
the food was ooook..
mayb it was nice, i dunno..
cuz i didnt hav the appetite 2 eat..
i was kinda full after all the popcorns n coke..

THEN, it was SHOPPING TIME!!! HURRAY!!
walked into fox..
then i saw tis really pretty green top! i SO want it BUT it was too ex..
my mummy wouldnt let me buy it.. T.T
walked into bossini n tried on a few tops..
was torn between a yellow or brown top..
mummy said i can only choose one..
OH MUMMY y cant i hav BOTH???
so in the end i chose the brown one becos sum1 told said to choose brown..
and since i NO brown top in my wardrobe i REALLY should get the brown one.. haha..
my mummy went into a few shops n tried on a few outfits but didnt lyk any..
my sister bought a pair of new jeans..
no it was mummy bought it 4 my sister.. haha..
my bro got a soccer ball..
and my daddy got NOTHING! lyk DUH!

walked over to marina square..
i saw SO many nice stuffs! BUT the price oso v nice..
especially THAT skirt! it's so cute!
BUT awwww i orede bought tt brown top..
my mummy was lyk see i told u not 2 buy the top so fast..
i looked at her n begged her..
BUT she gave me tt sorry-only-one kinda look..
OH MAN!
when sch reopens i'm going to save AND buy those clothes!
MUAHAHA =)

while we were walking towards the mrt station, i saw kamkit n gaohua going in the opposite direction..
i think they decided to walk wif me since they turned back n started questioning me on smth(secretive)..
later i learnt tt DAT BLOODY BIG MOUTH kamkit told gaohua dat thingy..
i didnt hesitate 2 give him a punch man! bloody hell!
arghhh! i wanted 2 tell gh tt myself!
how can he ruin it!!! how could he???!!
arghhh! man! i still cant believe tis..
tt kamkit nearly let it out in fornt of my parents!
so unforgivable! i know he was playing ard BUT wat if they heard it?
better 2 b safe than sorry right?
then they went off to damai for the ncc camp thingy..
and we went home after that..

everytime i think of him, i smile.

2006-06-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

at ard 2 in the morning i was woken up by the vibration of my hp..
i was so shocked tt i fell off the bed..
cursing under my breath, i picked up the phone n guess wat?
WRONG NUMBER!!
i was so pissed off man! really pissed off!
it took my awhile to fall back to sleep..
THEN the bloody person call back again..
he was speaking chinese..
so i replied back in broken chinese dat he call wrong number n dat my hp no is 91731698 NOT 91831698.. arghhh!!

then at ard 3 smth tt guy msg me..
he said, "dui bu qi da chuo hao ma. sonny."
i replied, "huh? wat sonny? u cannot speak english is it? who r u anyway?"
then another person wif a diff no replied back..
he said, "sorry. i'm sonny. wanna b frens?"
i was lyk huh? call wrong number still wanna b frens? weird..
i replied, "sure anything. anyway how come there's 2 diff no? n tis no is only 1 digit diff frm my no?"
he said tt his name is danny.. he was lost in jb so his fren had 2 call him 2 find out where he was.. n his fren called the wrong number.. he mistyped 8 for 7.. HAHA
why 7? why not 6? or 5? haiz..
trying to disturb my beauty sleep sia..

went 2 visit my grandma at 9plus..
ate minced pork porridge for lunch..
DAMN delicious! YUMMY!!
i miss my grandma's cooking man..
at 1.30 took 222 to bedok interchange..
met eric at bedok mrt platform n shi hui, li ping n lloyd on the train to orchard..
went to far east.. bought a blossomz skirt.. costs $39.90..
wahh.. heart pain.. but i lyk the skirt.. haha..
shi hui bought a yellow shirt..
li ping bought a bag, hair band n a bead necklace..
lloyd bought shoes n i cant rmb wat la..
then went to wisma..
at 5.30pm, rushed to shaw house to catch she's the man..
it was DAMN funny man!
i LOVE the ending! so sweet..

after tt we went home..
while waiting 4 the train, tt lloyd ar keep saying the hongkongers..
i noe they lyk to push ppl la..
but then hor he keep demonstrating it seh.. haiz..
reached home at ard 8plus..
now watching da chang jin... last few episodes le..

it's time i put the past behind me n move forward.

2006-06-18T21:48:00.000+08:00

Tuesday:
went ice skating at jurong east wif shi hui li ping charmane lloyd n eric..
tis is lyk only my 2nd time going there..
the last time i went there was sec2 i think..
saw many tp students there..
also saw viyond n his frens there too..
wat a coincidence..
fell down on my butt thrice..
it was damn painful..
the impact was so gr8 tt it sorta shot thru my backbone to my skull..
but overall it was fun..
after tt, eric n charmane went off..
so only left the 4 of us..
went over to bugis to window-shop..
i NEED to get a new bag =)

Saturday:
met kheng puay at charlotte's bus stop..
i was so sorry tt i had 2 make her wait..
then we walked to evps..
we're the first ones to arrive..
mentoring was kinda boring..
cuz i wasnt assigned to any mentees..
so had 2 help plan games 4 the mentees..
games was kinda fun..
cuz the kids were so cute! haha..
after tt, went orchard wif kheng puay..
ate long john's 4 lunch..
bought my sis's bday pressie n a belt 4 myself..
kheng puay oso bought a belt 4 herself..
haiz.. my sis's bday pressie so ex..
make me cant buy much for myself.. sob sob..
at ard 5plus, took a bus to my grandpa's place to celebrate fathers' day..
played wif my little cuzzies.. so cute!
keep calling me,"malerie jie jie" =)
in a few months time i'll hav another cuzzie to play wif! yay!

p.s. i cant rmb wat i did on monday, wednesday n thursday.. haiz..

2006-06-11T09:30:00.000+08:00

i noe it's kinda slow/late to say tis but i'm going to say it anyway!
FINALLY the tests are OVER and the HOLIDAYS are here! =)
but only for 2 weeks.. T.T
oh well better than nth..
even though my holidays r here n i'm s'posed to b relaxing..
i bet my dad is STILL going to give me a bloody hard time..
he'll start saying, "you everyday oso go out, play computer for so long, from morning until now never even revise ur work, no homework? go study ahead la.. y u cannot listen to me? holidays is a gr8 time to catch up wif ur studies, so lazy nv go out exercise n BLAH BLAH BLAH."
arghhhh! i cant stand it u noe?
when i go out, he complains i go out every SINGLE bloody day..
when i stay at home, he complains i'm lazy nv go out exercise n tt i play the computer for such long hours..
so even if i stay at home or go out he makes so much freaking noise!
he dunno if i nv go out n exercise?
when i go out wif my frens, it's always cycling swimming watch movies or shopping..
isnt cycling n swimming exercises????
then y complain i go out everyday? i still exercise once in a while!
if i stay at home, i'll hav nth to do besides watching tv n playing the computer right?
give me a break man!
oh i forget! he NEVER shuts his mouth..
he's always beside my siblings n i NAGGING away..
yak yak yak~

haiz.. holidays oso muz go thru tis kinda stress..
i think my type of stress is neverending..
it goes round n round lyk a circle in a spiral..
PLUS i've been having tis throbbing headache for FIVE CONSECUTIVE days!!!!!!!!
erm.. today's the sixth..
goodness! i cant believe i endured tis long!

ok back to my dad or rather my parents..
can u believe tt i havent ONCE stayed overnight in a chalet wif my frens?????
it's always either i stay till ten n go home myself OR i stay until midnight then i call them to fetch me home!
they think my friends r bad..
they come out loads of ridiculous(to me) reasons when i ask them why!
i think they're juz too protective.. OVER-protective!
for like the sake of mankind, i'm seven-teen. not seven.
it just doesn't sink into their heads now does it?
i know how to choose my friends..
i mayb wrong BUT they HAVE to let me make my own mistakes n let me learn from it..
it's the experiences tt mould the person not the person who make the experiences..
juz let me go.. it's lyk i'm stuck in a world i hate, trying my hardest to break free..
BUT i cant.. there's a barrier obstructing my pathway to freedom n that is my parents..
haiz.. HAIZ..

i noe they do ALL tis because they love me..
they dun wan to see me hurt..
they dun wan to see me fall down..
sometimes i can see tt they let me hav my own way BUT it's a minority..
i hav to fight for wat i wan..
sometimes i succeed BUT mostly i dont..
i feel lyk SCREAMING OUT LOUD!

it's time to let it out.

2006-06-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

Lose Lose Situation By Brian Mcfadden

When we fall out
I like to go driving in my car
Listen to something ironic
And end up in a bar

Get an earful of shit from a stranger
Who's got a broken heart
Weighting up what would be more payful,
Staying with your man
Or going back to her

Doesn't everybody feel this way sometimes?
It's a lose-lose situation
For a shitty little crime
You can never win with women
It's pointless trying to try
It's a lose-lose situation till the day you die

Everybody knows the score
She'll be crying to the mother-in-law
And I'll be sleeping out with the dog
Must give interflora
A call, a call, a call, a call...

Doesn't everybody feel this way sometimes?
It's a lose-lose situation
For a shitty little crime
You can never win with women
It's pointless trying to try
It's a lose-lose situation till the day you die

Then we make up
I'm walking on egg-shells for a day
And I'll clean the house
And hope that I might get a lay
I've been back to that drunken stranger
And something that he says, "Pack your bags, alright?"
She'll be quiet when your dead

Doesn't everybody feel this way sometimes?
It's a lose-lose situation
For a shitty little crime
You can never win with women
It's pointless trying to try
It's a lose-lose situation till the day you die
And it's a lose-lose situation till the day you die

listen up guys, brian mcfadden is juz brilliant! he figured it all out n wrote it in lyrics. tis is all soooo damn true!

2006-06-04T22:44:00.000+08:00

juz came back frm the SAF chalet at changi..
yeah my dad works in the RSAF..
cool right?
anyway am so tired now man..
GUESS WAT?? i havent finish study pipc sia..
so wat am i still doing here, blogging??
release stress la..
damn stress k..
go chalet still muz study..
near the beach/sea somemore..
s'posed to b relaxing one leh..
a nightmare come true..
my daddy lo.. he dunno tt poly holi is diff frm pri n sec holi..
haiz.. tml NO breakfast HOW??
NO lunch NO dinner MUZ go out and buy somemore..
lazy la.. PLUS i dunno how 2 cook..
my dad, bro, sis n maid will b staying there till tues..
so now at home only my mama n me..
my mama always come home frm work so late..
nobody at home in the morning n afternoon..
so lonely seh..
damnit la.. i NEED AUNTY RHEA!!!
btw i'm not spoilt hor..

now am typing a reply back to kheng puay in email..
i noe i'm doing the wrong things now..
i'm supposed to b studying not comforting ppl n blogging..
oh man.. i think i should get going b4 i feel DOWNRIGHT guilty for not studying n making full use of my time in the chalet..
i said i could concentrate better at the chalet before right??
i was WRONG! i couldnt!
now i'm racing against time..
*prays hard* i hope i'll do better for my term tests though!

p.s. tt thingy abt benjamin in my taggy is crap man.. dun believe it! it's one of my frens joking around.. haha..

2006-06-02T19:14:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT!! juz finish printing my csas journal n packing my bag..
yeah i'm gonna spend my weekend in the changi chalet there..
i noe i noe..
next week is term test n yet i hav the mood to go chalet..
i'm NOT crazy!
if i dun go to the chalet, i'll hav NO breakfast, NO lunch, NO dinner and NObody at home wif me..
yeah i noe i can juz eat out BUT i dont wanna feel so pathetic sitting there alone eating get it??
PLUS if i packet back still have to wash the bowls n plates or whatever.. i lazy la..
SO i HAVE to go to the chalet..
BUT i'm not going there to play!!
i'm going there for the BBQ on sat night AND to STUDY near the sea/beach or whatever la..
NOW i'm waiting for my mummy to come home..
so we can eat dinner and then make our way there TOGETHER..
DAMNIT! i'm freaking hungry now..
mummy, where ARE you???

anyway, have received all our quizzes today..
overall not so bad EXCEPT for organic chemistry..
i FAILED man! 6/20!!
luckily i only spent one hr revising for it..
or else i would be so pissed!
hap i nearly got full marks -19/20..
the one i'm most statisfied wif..
but it's by luck one la..
my o lvl pure bio get c5 leh.. how can now hap get so gd??
tt's y is by luck one.. not becos i pro in hap hor..
math get 22/25..
biochem get 14/20..
pipc get 11.5/20..
at LEAST i passed pipc..
i tot i'll flunk it.. phew!

and one last thing..
it's a gd thing i'm going to study in the chalet..
cuz the chalet is 2 storeys high..
i'll locked myself in the 2nd floor to prevent myself frm watching the tv which is on the 1st floor AND there'll b NO computer there..
SO i wont get distracted or keep thinking of playing maple..
MUAHAHA!

i miss Daniel, i miss Caine, i miss Xiang Kun and i miss Joel! it's been ages since i talked to them. it's lyk they're slowly disappearing from my life, leaving just footprints and memories behind.

2006-05-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday after oc quiz, hav oc lecture..
TWO HOURS AGAIN! on a saturday somemore.. tsk tsk..
went to LT6 for the lecture but the sound system lyk smth wrong so hav to go to the ACTUAL lt for the lecture..
in other words everybody hav to squeeze into ONE pathetic lt..
shihui's right abt we pay such expensive sch fees for wat??
to sit on the stairs during lectures ar? haiz..
saw kamkit in LT8, the actual lt, n guess wat??
u're DAMN right! he was sitting comfortably in a bloody chair!
told him to let me sit on his chair n he sit on the floor..
u noe wat he said??
tis sit for humans, not for cats!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGHHH!!!
i'm not a cat lo.. i noe he's juz jk la..
but really..
duzn mean ms gwen used to pronounce my name 'mal' as 'meow' means he hav to always call me by tt name lo.. haiz..

well well, we survived being squashed in the LT for nearly two hrs..
then went to tm wif shihui, liping, lloyd, eric, lynn, charmane, charlene, jessica n yvonne..
lloyd, eric, lynn n the rest except shihui liping n me, started discussing wat movie to watch..
is either the da vinci code or xmen3..
ended up lynn, charlene n yvonne went to watch da vince..
jessica went to meet her bf..
n the remaining of us went to watch xmen3..
i LOVE it man!
scott, professor x n jean died..
magneto n mystiqe became humans..
jean killed scott n professor x, wolverine killed jean..
n blah blah.. dun wanna say everything..
let those who havent watch, hav a chance to watch it properly..
see the effects.. very nice..
ppl die, turn to powder.. o.O

later going to grandma's hse for dinner..
going to play wif my cutie cuzzies again!!
so muz go completed my hw now!
havent even started seh!! ahhh!!!

2006-05-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

ccn day today..
hilly's store was juz right beside US!!
whoots!
lee jin n i went to check out the other sch's stores..
design was the least, engine nth much..
business the MOST happening one!
OF COURSE la.. BUSINESS leh..
they noe how 2 attract more ppl ma..

helped around here n there..
while i was talking to whoever is tt i cant rmb, liping took a pic of me..
i didnt noe tt k..
mayb i knew tt the cam was in front of me but i didnt noe it was aiming for me..
yeah yeah i'm SLOW.. fine..
wah.. i look so ridiculous in it lo.. haiz..
then while i was smsing kheng puay she took another pic of me..
tis one was even worse i THINK..

saw char n kheng puay at business sch there..
saw rosalind n yu tian there too..
but they're not wif char n kp..
realised kp invited them last night.. o.O
was so shocked to see them!
didnt noe jc finished lessons so early AND they were in their home clothes not sch uniform unlike those other jc students who juz walked in our sch wif their uniforms on n act as if they're so big shot or wat... *pukes*
they say, 'when i rome, do as the romans do.'
so those jc students should actually change into their home clothes instead of strutting around in tp showing off their bloody uniforms.. haiz..

oh ya, before ccn day start before tt also got lectures n quiz..
pipc quiz first.. SURE FAIL one.. NO confidence at all..
aiya ALL fail better.. haiz.. damn demoralised man..
tml still got oc quiz.. damnit man..
dont study better, study already still lyk tt..
after pipc quiz got pipc lecture..
TWO hours!!
anyway the SAME thing happened AGAIN!
viyond REALLY absolutely nth to do man!
took out his beloved hp n start snapping pics, candid pics somemore..
he took 1 on me n my spiderman pose n 1 on lee jin doing smth really silly..
her hands were in the air doing whatever u call tt..
PLUS we dont even rmb doing any of those poses!!!!!!!!!
AHHHH!!
whatever la.. if shihui sends me the pictures i'll post it on the blog..
it's DAMN funny lo..
even i myself laughed at me myself...
HAHA.. LOL.. LMAO..

oh well, juz now juz spent 1 hr studying oc..
before tt was mapling wif kamkit..
now watching da changjin..
sometimes i really feel lyk slapping changjin though she's a gd guy or whatsoever..
because of HER the whole thing is SO bloody DRAGGY!!!!!
everytime she wants to say smth her mouth will lyk open n close, open n close..
lyk want 2 say but dun want 2 say..
WAH LAU eh! she'll b the death of me man!
argh! why cant she juz say right? haiz..
always lyk tt one.. cant stand it man..
tt's y i recently seldom watch da changjin orede..

2006-05-25T20:34:00.000+08:00

juz now after lessons, met kheng puay outside AS sch..
went to take some clothes frm her..
then walked over to business 4th or 5th floor..
cant rmb..
then sat at the sofa there..
so comfy! still got air con somemore..
then halfway kp's fren call her..
she say she in the ladies now..
juz now presentation her face turned red..
n ppl were lyk whispering, saying her face is red n blah blah..
then she damn shy, went to the ladies to hide..
after much persuasion, kp managed to convince her to go back to class n get over n dont wif the presentation..

then we sat there continue chatting n laughing AS USUAL..
i suggested to kp tt mayb we could exchange bags for the time being..
she agreed, of course..
how can she resist my emily the strange bag?? haha..
realised her bag got a lot of rubbish man!
sweet wrappers, tissue paper, bits of papers... eww..

so if u see someone in business carrying my emily the strange bag, tt will b kheng puay..
n i'll b carrying her green bag for the time being.. haha..
BTW kheng puay, RMB it's emily THE STRANGE not emily THE ROSE or emily the STRANGER ok??
LOL.. she ar.. haiz..

2006-05-24T20:43:00.000+08:00

another 8 to 6 day has passed..
i completely dun understand wat the hell is the biochem lecturer talking abt..
he's old but kinda cute..
all his concepts drawings n stuff.. so cute!
u should see it.. all the little stick man climbing over the wall n falling over..
n the cute pac man wif the peanuts..

tot we'll b having an hr break since there's no pipc lecture..
but shihui n liping say it's replaced by oc..
bloody toad..
stupid tennis teacher..
hate her methods.. how can use tennis n sir names n link it to oc??
wan to use examples oso use examples lyk the biochem lecturer la..
haiz.. then she lyk got ap seh..
how can anyhow call ppl to grow up n stuff?
ppl talking amongst themselves k..
n though they were lyk over there comparing which pages r missing in their notes is kinda childish but so what?
she hav no right whatsoever to say others until lyk tt..
PLUS she's juz a PART-TIME lecturer! haiz..
then act until lyk so big shot lyk tt.. *pukes*

after oc, hav math & stat..
fauzi n viyond came n sat beside or rather in the same row as shihui, liping, charmane, lloyd, ericm leejin and me..
then u noe tt fauzi lyk to disturb me right..
so today he show me another sign la.. dunno wat it means..
last time he show me a sign n said if i look at it, he'll beat me la..
so it's lyk a trick w/o any meaning.. -.-
fauzi's always lyk tt..
call my name for no rhyme or reason..
so i said smth la.. cant rmb wat..
he said, 'wah so rude ah.. i go tell ur mother.'
i said, 'huh.. if u can tell, then say lo..'
i dunno is my tone or wat la..
then fauzi said, 'wah ah lian ar..' *shakes head*
DAMNIT la.. i'm NOT ah lian lor..
do i even sound lyk one??!! tsk tsk..
then tt viyond in the middle of the claz keep calling me..
he's lyk juz sitting 1 person beside me.. call me 4 wat seh..
at first i didnt noe it was him la.. until he missed call to lee jin..
lee jin hav caller id ma.. i dun hav.. so she noe who did it one..
NONSENSE man.. tt viyond! so bored until lyk tt..

then while i was concentrating on wat the lecturer is saying, tt viyond took a picture of me using his hp!!!! ARGH!! i dont even look nice in it..
he took TWO somemore!
i didnt noe lo.. if not i surely use the notes cover me face one...
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he better delete it man!
esp the one he showed liping n shihui during biochem tut in the afternoon..
then tt fauzi said, ' wah ah lian studying ar..'
sometimes i really feel lyk punching him man.. haha..

anyway friday is ccn day..
n lee jin, shi hui, li ping n i r in charge of the advertising during the 1st shift..
WHAT THE??!!
lee jin n i ADVERTISING??!!
we'll prolly end up laughing lyk wat li ping n shi hui say..
shi hui said we shld perm our hair.. n hav cupcorn tatoos on our cheeks..
i was lyk ARE U CRAZY OR WAT?
haiz... advertising!!! i still cant believe it man..
but i shld b kinda thankful they nv put me under cooking..
cuz i'll prolly mess everything up.. =)

oh ya i forgot to mention the COOLEST/FUNNIEST thing today..
fauzi wore a black shirt wif a LADIES toilet sign on the top left hand corner today.. LOL..
u might not think it's funny BUT lee jin n i DO!
YEAH! we shared a 'secret joke'.. haha.. SECRET.. NO telling! :P

it's my life. dun try to tell me wat to do. let me make my own mistakes n learn from it. please.

2006-05-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

many things happened recently..
i dunno where to start..
how to say it..
tt explains y i havent been blogging much recently..
sigh..

anyway will b going to sch later for pipc lab..
THREE bloody hours!
haiz.. so sian..
last week got biochem, hap n math quiz..
tis week left oc n pipc quiz..
few weeks later during my sis n bro's june holis got term test..
HAIZ!

YESTERDAY my siblings n i practically DRAGGED ourselves to kallang for the BIG walk!
and yes, i COMPLETED the WHOLE 10km!
my reward from it is getting muscle ache nearly everywhere today..
haiz..

why? why? why? i wan to forget everything n anything.. how i wish i had amnesia..

2006-05-16T09:16:00.000+08:00

i dunno wat the fuck is wrong wif my maplestory so i'm gonna dl the WHOLE freaking thing again!
i'm so gonna set my mind on surpassing kamkit!
he's lyk crazy or wat seh..
we started playing maple at ard the same time n now he's lyk way in front of me..
wif a lvl65 cleric n lvl45 bandit..
n i'm only a lvl 44 bandit n a lvl37 fire/poison..
ok.. i AM slow! but i can b lyk him..
becos of certain circumstances all related to my one n only little mischevious-bratty-but-cute lil bro n my oh-so-naggy big daddy.. sigh..
i'll nv get my FULL freedom n do things my own way..
NEVER! unless.........
i own my OWN flat! sigh............. BIG sigh..

now it's only freaking 40%! SLOW!!
FASTER!! FASTER!!
anyway today i only need to go to sch for 1hr of oc tutorial or prolly only 0.5hr BECAUSE we havent learn ANYTHING abt hydrocarbons n yet we're expected to do the tutorial?!
NO WAY!
oh well.. lets talk abt sumthing else..
MOTHERS' DAY!
yeah on sat we went out to ecp's JUMBO restaurant..
chose the open-air seats..
it's WINDY!
luckily they say inside all booked if not we'll nv get 2 feel the sea breeze against our face..
food was ok EXCEPT why daddy never order shark's fin tis time????!!!!!
i WANT!!! oh because the fish costs 40bucks!
i dun lyk THAT fish! juz becos of it we cannot order shark's fin!
my dad says we muz not b so cruel to the sharks..
OH since WHEN?? did he become so ___________???
hmmmmmmmmmmm....

anyway met my mummy's sec sch classmate..
i REMEMBER her! we went over to her hse during cny tis yr!
gawd! she has a CUTE son!
i didnt noe he IS cute!
i tot he was average! or was it the restaurant's light? or the background?
oh whatever!

then on sun we went over to my grandma's hse(my daddy's side)..
oh how noisy!
my sis n my VIOLENT cuzzie got into a fight..
i dunno which cuzzie was it cuz i was busy talking to jo n jess..
jo looks better wif short n layered hair instead of her usual natural thick n bushy hair! LOL
jess looks cute n pretty as usual..

ONE thing tt made me so happy tt day was when my elder cuzzie TALKED to me!
it's such a frigging long time since i last saw him?
nah i saw him tis cny.. WITHOUT his gf!
well well.. erwin's a property agent, ex-BOWLER..
he told me to join bowling as my cca so tt he could train me??!
look who's saying tt to me! hoho..
how come edmund seldom talks to me??
cuz he's always snatched away frm my dad b4 i get to him!
then they'll b lyk talking air force business.. argh!
DADDY!! i wanna talk to edmund kor kor!! =)

then there's Teck Li(Teddy)..
he's ALWAYS so quiet, ALWAYS wif my bro! u noe i'm not tt anti-social!
u can talk to me ALMOST anything! ask me girl stuff, whatever!
dun b shy! i'm not lyk eunice or josephine(jo) or jasmine or jesslyn(jess) or lyk ur sis!
i wanna TALK NOT PLAY!
the next time i see him, i'm going to make sure he opens his mouth n TALK to me!
the rest of my cuzzies r girls, easier to mix ard..
oh well.. he's so TALL now.. n he's WEARING specs now!
u noe wat tt means??
all my cuzzies wears specs!! i mean ALL, including my 2 elder cuzzies!
OMGoodness!

because of u i find it hard to trust ppl around me. how could you? why? i guess u've no life whatsoever.

2006-05-12T11:25:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY:
after sch, went to watch poisedon wif lee jin, shi hui, li ping, charmane, joanne, yu xuan, lloyd, eric, yvonne n charlene..
shared popcorn n drink wif shi hui n li ping..
usually i can finish the whole box of popcorn myself..
but today dunno y i cant..
really no joke..
dun believe can ask gao hua..
he'll say i crazy one..
can eat finish the whole box of popcorn w/o drinking the drink.. hehe..
i also helped hilly complete one VERY IMPORTANT stuff!
it's gotta do wif MONEY so it's IMPT! haha..
helped her transfer MONEY to whoever's acc is tt..
i felt so HAPPY seh! i DID it! wif some help frm eric n later hilly..
i found the reason y the transaction couldnt b processed earlier..
cuz hilly u gave me the wrong acc no.! instead of 3 u typed 0!
lucky no such acc no. if not transfer money to wrong person die ar..
anyway the movie finished at ard 5..

rushed home to get my things so my sis n i could go out straight away..
never did i expect she still HAVENT bathe n eat her din din!
i was lyk 'what the?!'
if i knew she havent get ready, i would've taken my time seh!
arghhhh!
so i decided to bathe b4 we went out to buy mothers' day pressie for my one n only mummy! =)
reached orchard at ard 6 plus..
then tis guy stopped me n asked me to donate money?
hello??? do i look lyk i hav plenty of money??
i told him tt i dun hav money n asked him to look for more richer ppl instead of students lyk me!
the my sis very clever hor..
saw the guy asking me, then slowly sneak away!
so gonna get her for tis man!
after tt, went to far east first..
eunice bought a pair of ripples slippers which she so wanted..
n then i saw tis blossomz skirt!
it was beautiful! though it's simple..
the thread was purple n it's denim..
it was love at first sight! i so wanted it! but it's $35.90!
but soon i'll b able to get my hands on it..
cuz my sis n maid r going to get tis for me as my early bday pressie!
MUAHAHAHA!!
then went over to cineleisure, walk walk ard..
while we were in sembawang, one of the salesmen came up to us n said, "if u all want to try the cd, let us noe, we'll play it for u."
i was lyk 'er.. y u tell us tis? y nv tell others?'
so i told my sis tt he thinks we're potential customers, lets walk out.. haha..
still cannot find any slippers tt r suitable for mummy, so decided to go over to bedok..

reached bedok at ard 9pm, went into all the shoe shops we came across..
but to no avail..
buying slippers for mummy is difficult!
cuz she dun lyk those kinda slippers which divides the big toe frm the other toes..
plus if we found the kinda slippers she lyk, the pattern oso not nice..
haiz.. then FINALLY we saw THE PAIR!!!
n yeah we bought it n we were FINALLY on our way home!

we reached home a few mins b4 ten..
daddy keep in mind tt we DID reached home BEFORE ten lyk we promised! hehe..

LATER:
going to my grandma's house for MOTHERS' DAY dinner!
we're having potluck cuz my grandpa hav difficulties walking n it would b kinda inconvenient to eat out..
YAY! looking forward to it n to seeing wif 2 cute little cuzzies! =)

2006-05-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

met a guy while i was walking home juz now..
his name is joe..
he said some things which i kept asking myself is it true or not?
do i REALLY hav those 'rich girl' look?
lyk i'm very pampered or wat??
do i REALLY look lyk an indonesia chinese juz becos at the starting of the conversation i told him to speak english instead of chinese?
juz becos my chinese sucks, does it mean i'm an indonesian chinese?
am i REALLY so small in size??
(i'm taller than some of my frens)
do i REALLY look lyk i'm a spendthrift?
do i? do i?
do i REALLY look lyk i dont save ANY of my pocket money?
huh? do i?
if i nv met tis guy, or rather if he havent stopped to 'chat' wif me, i wouldnt b saying all tis ok?
so am i? do i? huh?
i mean those comments may not look so bad, but i think it also sounds not very good..

wat if someone who dunno the 'real' me n judge me by my appearance..
they'll think i'm stuck up n blah blah blah..
uh watever..
i talking rubbish..

how come majority of my frens dun celebrate Mothers' Day?
i asked lee jin, she said, 'celebrate for wat?'
i asked gao hua, he said, 'huh? mothers' day tis wk ar? i didnt noe seh.'
n so on so forth..
i was lyk 'WHAT?! you mean you dun celebrate MOTHERS' DAY?? WHY???'
oh well..
I AND MY FAMILY DO!
we celebrate for my mummy n 2 grandmothers =)
one of my grannies duzn hav a bday so we use mothers' day to subsitute..
haha..
i mean she has a bday but u noe last time ppl dun hav birth certs lyk us so yeah, she didnt KNOW when is her birth date! haiz..
LUCKY us!

i wanna b a truly happy girl - free of thoughts of him. i wanna forget everything abt him. all the things we've done together, all the things he done for me. let the wind blow all the memories of him in my mind away. let the ocean wash them all away.

2006-05-09T18:43:00.000+08:00

yay! am so happy today!
lab so fun!
fauzi, my lab partner, kept making me laugh..
i lyk wearing the lab coat too..
although it's kinda big n long.. haha..
alex went thru some questions on the board..
after he finished he asked us if we got any questions..
then suddenly fauzi raised MY hand!
i tot he wanted to copy my work or wat seh..
when alex asked, "yes, malerie?"
i was lyk 'huh? wat?'
then i realised wat fauzi did lo..
i noe i very slow la..
BUT i was busy copying the workings lo..
so pai seh sia..
PLUS tt alex ar in the previous tutorial called my name twice seh..
i mean lyk of all the others why me?
cuz my name is easy 2 rmb n it's a nice name(to him)..
lab ended early so we had 2hr lunch break..

went to design canteen to eat..
we occupied 3 tables cuz there was lyk 12 of us?
yeah, we're noisy BUT not as noisy as the 4 guys sitting beside lee jin, li ping, shi hui n me lo..
we were lyk talking n laughing, then suddenly a heard a very high pitched laughter..
n guess where it came frm?
ONE of the guys in the next table!
wah lau eh.. lee jin n i were lyk go join choir la.. LOL

after pipc tut, hav another 1hr break..
went over to as canteen..
yu xuan n eric ordered ice kachang, lee jin ordered ribena AGAIN!
lee jin LOVES ribena.. haha..
WARNING TO ALL: joanne gets violent when asked to teach.
i dunno if it's true.. she claims tt she does though.. haha..
started chatting abt movies roller coasters rides etc..
then lloyd yu xuan n eric started talking abt sims 2..
saying wat the character can hav sex dunno wat thing la..
lloyld even started DESCRIBING the actions..
shi hui even started adding more descriptions..
i kept laughing n laughing.. it was funny la..
another thing is li ping n lloyld kept competing wif each other..
one person say one thing the other MUST say smth better..
i was lyk WHATEVER!

after tt went for oc tutorial..
sat wif eugene n lee jin..
they all la.. nv leave space for lee jin n me..
actually it's ok la.. i dun mind..
sit wif eugene oso can.. if not he sit alone in the front lyk v poor thing..
then miss ler started taking our attendence by calling out our names..
come to my name u noe how she pronounce???
mer-lair-rie! i was lyk sooooooo disappointed!
of all the tutors or whoever.. ONLY she cant get my name right!
eugene got the pronounciation right!
but why cant she????!!!!
sigh.. it almost the same as valerie except the 'v' change to 'm' lo..
thanks to my mother's pronounciation, i hav such a unique name.. haha..

PLUS today wileen told us tt mr. poon, our sec sch amath teacher, invited us over for dinner during the june holis.. YAY!!!!!! so happy!
sry if the rest of the claz not invited cuz mr. poon house not so big la.. haha..
rosalind n kheng puay oso going! yay!
gonna call fiqa faja n hilly along too! =D

2006-05-08T18:04:00.000+08:00

lazy to post entries everyday so i decided to summarize EVERYTHING! =)

friday:
after sch went back to damai wif sook huan to collect our o lvl cert..
i noe la.. so long then collect..
met sh's fren, susu, who accompanied us there..
n edmund n lee jin became my TWO bodyguards! LOL
as if lo.. they only sent me till the sch bus stop..

saw alee n katy walking out of the sch..
told us they were also there to collect the o lvl cert..
BUT mr yew dun let them collect..
i was lyk 'WAT THE?! WHY??'
then they said cuz sat got the polling thingy so they dun let us collect!
WTF la.. o lvl cert n polling no connection lor..
full of bullshit man.. so nonsense!
anyway i was so pissed tt on our way to tamp interchange, i kept on ganging up wif susu to 'rebute' whatever sh say..
so fun seh.. cuz she lyk a little bit tis n tt, then keep saying boyfriend here boyfriend there..
eg. when susu msging her fren, sh say it's her bf..
n since gao hua n me r so close she kept saying we're such a sweet couple..
OH PUH-LESE!!
gao hua is JUST my BEST fren! -.-
sigh.. sum ppl jus dont get it.. haha..

sat:
went out wif kp to orchard..
we keep laughing as usual..
she kept complaining on how she couldnt click wif her classmates..
AND that her thigh is so big tt's y she decided not to wear jeans..
sigh.. i'm so speechless..
PLUS she kept pestering me to bring her to a bubble tea shop!
i obviously kept calling her to shut up..
bought a pink tee..
went over to bedok to statisfy kheng puay of her bubble tea craving..
bought a pair of slippers there!
yay!!! a NEW pair..
tis time better dun let me catch tt BIG FOOT trying 2 spoil my mood again!

mon:
was mapling in the morning when i received 1 sms tt pissed me off!
tis sms was frm our 21 yr old big bro, joseph!
BLODDY HELL!!
his sms goes smth lyk tis - next time if there's a change in lessons inform me..
i was lyk ok................
do YOU think i'll inform u?
why cant he bleeding find out himself?
why didnt he listen during lectures/tutorials n take note if there're any bloody changes?
why cant he ask others instead of expecting ppl to tell him?
who does he think he is?
so wat he is the oldest in the class?
he thinks he is some BIG SHOT ar?
why muz i inform him lo..
STUPID STUPID!!
i hate the tone he used lo..
although it's juz an sms BUT arghhh!!
forget it! dun wanna say orede..

2006-05-04T20:48:00.000+08:00

even though the wk isnt over yet..
i'm so gonna conclude tt today is the MOST unlucky day of the wk!
or shld i say over the 2 wks of schooling?
anyhow, sum bloody big foot stepped on my slipper while we were entering the lecture room for our biochem..
stupid idiot!
i can easily forgive tt friggin big foot, whoever he/she is..
HOWEVER, circumstances made it impossible!
YA u're SO RIGHT!
my strap came out when i was stretching my legs..
i was lyk 'OH SHIT!' in the middle of the lecture..
BLOODY HELL!
how am i s'posed 2 go home?
ARGH!!
after the lecture still got another 1.5hr to go..
had to proceed to lvl 6 for hap tut..
luckily got lift..
BUT the lift dunno hate me or wat..
took so fucking long to reach lvl 3..
so had to walk up the bloody stairs BAREFOOTED!
DAMNIT! arghhh!!
STUPID BIG FOOT WHOEVER YOU ARE!!!

calm down, calm down..
i couldnt bleeding concentrate during hap tut cuz i keep thinking abt how am i going to get home..
neither could i concentrate on all of today's lectures..
cuz i was thinking abt the kero n colin thingy.. sigh..
ok back to how i got help..
i decided to find sum1 who lives near tp..
n i tot of our kind JOANNE!!
well, i was sorta panicking so i couldnt think of a better idea than 2 ask if she could lend me a pair of slippers for me..
she only had 1 pair but nevertheless she still help me think of a way..
luckily we met juexiu n she said she saw the bkshop near SAA selling slippers so joanne volunteered to help me buy it.. THANKS A LOT!! =)
and tt lloyd couldnt stop singing my name! o.O
i noe my name very nice la.. haha..
i'll make sure the next time he call me, he wont b singing my name!

let me be. dun try 2 change me. dun even try to control me. i wan to be me. i need my freedom. i need my space. please give it to me. i beg u. i wan to live my own life. let me make my own mistakes n learn from it. i'm not ur little girl anymore.

2006-05-03T20:19:00.000+08:00

sch started abt 2 wks ago..
realised tt i v long tt update my blog le..
so here i am! x)

anyway, lee jin juz told me 2 check out a gay blog..
go n take a look at it..
colinandkero.blogsopt.com
both of them r quite gd looking..
i dun even noe y they r gays..
how they noe they're gays?
wat it feels lyk 2 b one? (it's not lyk i wanna become one)
when they first realised they're gays how they accepted it?
i juz cant stop thinking abt it..
they're so brave 2 admit it n put up wif anti-gay comments..
i applaud them 4 it..
i wanna wish them gd luck in everything they do n in their relationship..
let every1 noe nth can come between them..
let them show tt true love can overcome anything tt comes in their way..

anyway sch's great..
kinda tiring but i enjoy it nevertheless becos of my new frens! =)
my dad says BMS is a difficult course..
i agree to a certain extent..
biochemistry is DEFINITELY tough!
wat DNA n RNA, polar n nonpolar bonds..
i heard frm zhihui they actually learn polar n nonpolar bonds in jc's chemistry..
OMG!
i came to poly becos i wanna take a break frm studying..
im tired of it..
but nv did i expect it to be wat i tot it was not.. get wat i mean?
sigh.. sigh.. sigh.. X100 Xinfinite

pipc(principles of inorganic & physical chemistry) so far i can still manage..
kinda of lyk wat we learn in sec sch..
organic chem(oc) is fine..
cuz the lecturer is GOOD!
she got pHD one leh..
if no gd can strip her of her pHD one.. cuz she duzn deserve it lo.. haha..
math&stat 1 is the SAME as wat we learn in sec sch's amath..
so it's not a prob..
the only prob is i hav 2 dig out all my amath notes n revise..
cuz the poly notes ar a lil bit messy.. haha..
human anatomy&physiology(hap) is ALMOST the same as wat i learn in sec sch's PURE bio..
haha.. but i muz not slack(though i orede am) cuz i cannot fail any term tests or exams if not hav to retake the whole yr again!
oh.. still got 2 more sub..
communication skills 4 applied sci(csas) n applied principles 4 effective living 1(apel) r kinda extra.. BUT it's under TP CORE so cannot escape..

i miss my sec sch frens! esp hilly fajar fiqa kheng puay kamkit frankie n gao hua!
now i hav no one 2 bicker with lyk how i bicker wif gh! T.T

i'm learning to let go. i wan to let go. i need to let go. i hav to let go. or else who am i to say i'm MOVING on? when am i gonna say i'm MOVING on through n through? will i b able to?

2006-04-23T13:11:00.000+08:00

ytd went 2 bugis with kp..
FINALLY bought a YELLOW shirt!
yay! my FIRST yellow shirt! *ahem*

ate lunch at mac..
started chatting abt the 3 days orientation..
n the SU overnight camp kp went to..
talked n talked..
shopped n shopped..
laughed n laughed..
going out wif kp is ALWAYS fun..
her face ALWAYS makes me laugh..
dun ask me why.. cuz i REALLY dunno why..

were so tired so we decided 2 sit down..
n we started commenting on the guys tt walked past..
according to kp, MOST of the guys r skinny!
she wouldnt want her dream guy 2 b so skinny cuz it would make her fat.. haha..
at ard 6 plus we decided 2 head home..
THEN guess wat we saw??
a HANDSOME guy!
yup, he looks jap.. lyk one of the guys in waterboys..
BUT the way he walks!
sooooooooooo sissy!
wasted seh! if not he would b perfect! frm the outside la..

reached bedok, time 4 kp to go..
right in front of us were 4 guys sitting on the bench..
so i nudged kp n said, "eh shuai ge leh."
she was lyk, "ewww!" b4 she went..

i decided 2 msg kp n tis was how our conver went:
me: wah lau.. juz now ur rxn very big lo.. i think they all saw it seh.. haha..
kp: haha, is it? oh my.. haha, y u say they saw it?
me: dunno leh.. cuz they were lyk looking in our direction?
kp: oh is it? mayb they think u pretty den look at u lor..haha,my rxn reali big?very big till almost every1'll see ah?oh,quite paisehlei lidat..haha..
me: ya right lor.. really la.. but not very big la.. is lyk u noe juz big la.. haha..
kp: oh the train inside got ppl look at me? paiseh.. haha..
me: i dunno leh.. i didnt notice.. i only saw them looking at our direction lor.. so confirm they saw it..
kp: oh no no no, my rxn v ugly..haha..haiz who cares,wont c them le..they hunks?i got disgusted by their hair colour.. all look lyk monkey.. haha..

i mean wat kp said is true!
their hair colour was yellow?? or was it golden??
cant rmb la.. so gross..
i dun understand wat's so gd abt dyeing ur hair tt kinda colour..
it's ok if it's brown or auburn..
BUT yellow?? golden?? *pukes*

after tt went down 2 the bball court 4 the opening of the soccer court or smth lyk tt la..
the performances were lyk so boring seh..
all the oldies n blah blah..
i wanted 2 go home n bathe BUT my mama REFUSED to let me go!
arghhhh!! so bad seh..
i was lyk over there falling asleep already!
THEN i saw tis guy!
he got such CUTE dimples! goodness!
luckily i havent go home yet..
n guess wat? he was performing!
throughout the whole thing i didnt feel sleepy or bored at all..
i EVEN clapped 4 him seh..
wah lau eh.. THOSE dimples!
eh not only me think he cute lo..
my maid oso 'kay..
my sis was lyk "errr he's ok la"..
aiya spoil the whole mood seh..
throughout the whole event only 1 interesting thing happen n tt is HIM lo..
tt's y my maid n i were so perked up tt point of time..
oh n his name is kai xiang.. haha..

went home at ard 9 plus n watched paladin..
i CRIED!!
i mean it's so touching!
then my sis said i was such a softie..
hey!! so touching leh..
how u expect me not 2 cry?
huh? u tell me la..

exhausted.

2006-04-22T09:49:00.000+08:00

2nd day (Thurs):
YAY!! we got 2 do the chicken dance!
AND the mass dance!
it was FUN! wheeee~
i so WANNA do it again!!!

then there was tis part of the mass dance where we had to play scissors paper stone and OBVIOUSLY the guy lose la..
so we, girls, get to slap the guys..
but is fake one la.. SO FUN!!

in the afternoon it was raining damn heavily so we had some indoor games which involves water.. arghhh
i was wearing JEANS man!
i should've wore shorts tt day!

anyway i was quite dry until we played tis game..
it was lyk some sort of catching game..
we formed a circle wif our eyes closed n the person-in-charge will pick a catcher..
then the catcher will catch sum1 n slowly it will form a human chain..
when the chain gets too long the person-in-charge will break the chain n the game goes on..
we girls were lyk screaming n running away..
in the midst we got splashed wif water by the OLs..
tt was how i ended wet frm head to toe! earghhh!!
it was fun though.. haha..

3rd day (friday):
played final clash..
my grp only left 1 lollipop..
the other grp won.. cannot rmb wat's the name but they're the werewolves.. sob sob..
sliverfang won best cheering grp..
BUT ventrues won 4 being the BEST clan! YAY!!
see i told u ventrues ROCKS! haha..

went over 2 the sports complex 4 the telematch..
hiya AS last la.. whatever lo..
so wat seh they all.. juz becuz AS got the least students so they expect us to squeeze lyk hell into 1 section..
wtf la.. i actually in the 2nd row one leh..
they move move move until my frens n i ended up in the last row where we cant even seat decently..
if we lean back a lil we'll fall back..
wat is tis lo.. then they expect us to cheer somemore..
we cant even hear wat the hell they talking abt..
ended up the left side not very enthu only the right side enthu..
no wonder AS last! squeeze somemore la..
later lose even more ar.. argh

then had 2 walk over 2 bedok reservoir 2 watch the regatta..
while walking there it rained.. heavily.. BUT after a while it stopped..
starting they showed off tp's wakeboarders..
so cool! they guy did the spin man! everyone was lyk WOW!
n so out of the 6 dragonboat races.. 2 of them AS did well..
got 1 we came in first another 1 we came in 2nd..
am so proud on AS's dragonboaters man!

at ard 7.30pm lyk tt, we went over 2 the sports complex 4 the jam n rock thingy..
we danced n danced until nearly 11pm..
so fun seh.. but lyk very few ppl frm AS go lo..
most of them frm engineering business n IT..
lyk DUH.. business was the overall champion sch lo..
how can they not celebrate right??
blah blah blah..
THE END!

i need a bigger dose of fun.

2006-04-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

orientation was THREE words - fun but tiring!
during games muz stretch here stretch there
n placed ourselves in awkward positions until my right waist hurts!
cuz apparently i was squashed up frm the right when we formed a circle
n my arms were too short to reach the other person opposite me so i had to stretch.
n hold his/her hands. n walk here n there 2 complete our tasks la.
basically most of the games r abt teamwork.

yeah we oso had ice breakers. n we were the VENTRUES!
yeah! the vampires!
i think chemical engineering were the werewolves la..
n another course which is.........i dunno.
ice breakers-had to shout out our names n wat we lyk 2 do.
got 1 guy, viyond, i think.
he said he lyk walking. lyk DUH! -.-
another guy he call himself e-boy.
i was lyk "wat's wrong wif ur real name?"
he said it was kinda difficult 2 pronounce.
he loves dunno wat agressive inline skating??
chimology!

ANOTHER orientation day tml!
man!
design school's orientation is so MUCH MORE interesting!(though their orientation was 4 days n not 3 days lyk us)
they had dance!
i wanna do the chicken dance! wheeee~

wait a minute i 4got sumthing!
the most impt thing of all!
n tt is.....................................
for the first time in months thoughts of him didnt cross my mind!
i juz realised tt when i reached home.
i was SO DARN happy man!
but i had no energy 2 show my happiness.
the werewolves sucked up all my energy!
eeearrghh!

ONE LAST thing!
the guys r SHORT!
i mean REALLY!
but, duh, they're still taller than me. T.T

ventrues rules!

2006-04-03T21:27:00.000+08:00

why does my bloody right eye keep twitching?
and my bloody gastric is getting worse!
it comes at night n early in the bloody morning!
STOP the twitch!
STOP the gastric!
to hell wif all tis things!
has smth bad happened to the ppl ard me?
if not why in the world does my eye keeps twitching?

leave me alone.

2006-04-02T10:08:00.000+08:00

life is weird.
love is weird.
people are weird.
and i <3 it.
it makes life interesting.
but i hate it too.
it makes life so much more complicating.
now i'm confusing myself.
i'm being indecisive. again.
oh. whatever.

love is a funny thing.
when u're concentrating on other things,
it comes along and takes centrestage when u least expect it.
so should we juz move ahead, and love follows?

they say if u love him, let him go.
i say if i love him, wat am i supposed 2 do?
lets say he loves me, so he should let me go.
and see if i go back to him.
if i did, we r meant 2 b.
n i did likewise.
we both keep waiting. and waiting.
neither of us take the first move.
we decided tt we're not meant 2 b.
n juz let time heal everything.

we, humans, r also funny n weird in one way or another.
n here we blame it on our nature.
we're born to b tis way.
we cant change tt fact.
but hav u ever wonder tt we hav a choice to choose whether to start the day with a positive or negative attitude?
some say yes, most say no.

i dunno wat is wrong with us.
take for example, zhang ziyi. last month, she attended the 78th Annual Academy Awards for the Oscars.
she wore an Armani dress then.
hongkong media said it "made her look so flat-chested it was scary".
next in the line is pamela anderson.
yeah, she has big boobs.
her boobs r fake. they're silicon boobs, ppl say.
for gods' sake! to hell wif the critics in us.
flat-chested or not u're still being criticised.
we all know tt nobody's perfect.
n even though one has perfect boobs, there'll certainly b some flaws.
so why criticise? u'll get it back in the end.
wat goes around comes around.
BUT why not criticise?
it makes life much more entertaining n interesting.

life is weird.
life is lyk a game.
when will we b able 2 figure it all out?
n find out wat we r living for?
wat is life all abt?
why is life lyk tt?
why make it lyk tt?
why? why? why?
even Deep Thought the wise in the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy couldn't give us a definite answer to Life, the Universe, and Everything.
think abt it.
but i doubt u'll come up with an answer to all this.
if Deep Thought had thought abt it for a thousand yrs, be it millions or trillions.
but the answer is still unknown to mankind.

life is lyk tt.
we're born to live it.
so juz live it.
dont even think abt it.
but if u think tt nth is impossible, so be it.
suit urself.

i dont care anymore. i dont give a damn abt it all. i wan 2 stop thinking.

2006-03-30T09:28:00.000+08:00

LOOK!!

LOOK again! i changed my character's hairstyle! isnt it cute? though i admit tt its head looks kinda big.. haha.. BUT i still think it's amazingly cute! awwww.. i love it! it may not be the nicest of all hairstyles BUT am i lucky to get tis! yeah, i used the reg coupon.. so the person will change it's hairstyle randomly.. i was praying so hard i wont get an ugly one.. phew! anyway, soooooo cute! wheeeeee~

2006-03-26T10:23:00.000+08:00

when u stopped giving me all those missed calls, i knew tt u've moved on..
i keep wondering what if i've picked up those calls?
what if i hadn't purposely ignored them?
wat would things between us be lyk?
would it turn out better? or worse?
if it would be better, it's such a pity..
if it would be worse, i'm so lucky..

i tot u would b there 2 catch me when i fall, but i was wrong..
u let me fall so deep..
but i'm glad u did..
u made me realise tt all gd things hav to come to an end..
u taught me things i'll nv learn frm teachers..
n now u've taught me smth tt i've put out for so long..
for the first time in my life, realised tt there r times where i hav to make it on my own..
i'm learning to stand up on my two feet all by MYSELF..
thank u so much..

i'm going 2 show the world tt i can do it..
i'm going to smile n tell the whole world i'm fine..
when i'm feeling blue, i wont implicate anyone..
i dont want 2 pull the whole world down wif me..
i'm going 2 smile like nothing is wrong, talk lyk everything is perfect, act lyk it's all a dream, n pretend it's not hurting me even though it is deep down..

i'm letting u go once n for all..
i wont hang on to those times we had together..
instead i've decided to keep them in a special place in my heart..
i'm moving on n putting the past behind me..
but once in a while i will look back n think of all the things we did together..

everything happens for a reason..
all those things we had happened for a reason..
god had it all planned out..
the world is so big n yet i had 2 go out n 'bump' into u..
he wants me to learn smth frm u..
and he had succeeded..
i'm glad to say i've moved on..

i pray for a day i'll find my prince charming. he'll love me who am i. he'll promise me tt he'll nv leave me.

2006-03-25T23:14:00.000+08:00

went 2 bedok reservoir 4 the walk-a-jog thingy today..
realised tt CCSS were also invited..
i was lyk SHIT!
got quite a number of pri sch frens studying there..
damnit la..

took part in the competition only becos my sis said she would run wif me..
only she didnt in the end..
she was lyk way in front of me..
DAT GURL!!
anyway while running i feel lyk giving up man..
it was lyk ages since i ran..
n now u expect me 2 run 4.2km at one shot?
i'm not kidding..
i came in 6th in the ladies open category.. not bad..

my trophy!!

when i was going 2 reach the finishing point..
tis CCSS guy took a pic of me..
i was lyk wth.. take a pic of me for wat?
i nv come in first.. plus i bet i look damn silly wif my tomato face..
*prays my face wont come out in their sch mag*

n guess who i saw??
JIE SHENG!! bloody faggart..
he's tt bleeding big mouth who spread the fucking rumour abt me n my best bud tt time..
was he sick or wat?
zhihui told me it was HIM who told every1 tt tingwei lyk me!
though tis happened when were still young, it was only recently tt i found out who spread tt rumour!
i felt lyk standing him up.. but on second thoughts not..
it looks kinda childish.. so i juz act lyk i'm cool wif it..
if he hadnt spread tt rumour, tingwei n i would b lyk the bestest of frens!
argh!! eeeeeeeeeee!!
whatever! it was all in the past..

n yeah my dad came in first..
lyk duh!
my sis was 4th..

lalalalalala..

2006-03-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

went to take the passport size photo wif hilly at one raffles place there..
ok.. my face looks kinda big.. hilly's too..
dunno how the person take one la..
then my mouth a lil crooked..
look so weird..
but whatever la..
looks better than the one i took at lavender there..

after tt went 2 the library..
dunno wat the hell was wrong wif me la..
i SAW the divider thing there..
u noe those thingy at the entrance.. if u didnt scan the bk it beeps? tt's the one..
BUT i didnt move aside i sort of bumped into it!
goodness.. luckily my rxn not very big..
cuz hilly lyk didnt notice i bump into tt thingy until i told her..
dang!

then we met sofian at uob there..
hilly rmb it's UOB not OUB ar..
later i see ur blog spell OUB i punch u ar..
joking only la..
took a taxi 2 toa payoh there...
dunno y only at there then sofian can go withdraw money..

flagged a taxi AGAIN..
n since it was raining sofian said it was better if the taxi drove us to each of our doorstep..
i was lyk dont need la..
wet a bit only.. save money wat..
but the taxi driver juz went into the carpark there..
i tell ar.. the driver surely very happy one..
can earn so much money juz by driving 3 kids home..
plus he oso too much lo..
on the highway he drive lyk DAMN slow leh..
punch him ar..
n yeah, the ride home was VERY VERY quiet..
starting was ok.. cuz tt sofian talk alot of crap..
but slowly he quieten down..
as for hilly... her mind was SOMEWHERE ELSE..
sigh.........

i promise i will stay strong n will not give up. I MUST.

2006-03-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

went shopping wif kp at bugis today..
so fun..
kp it's not tt u're so humourous u make me laugh..
it's YOUR face!
YOUR expression on YOUR face..
not ur character...
so PUH-LESE! haha..

went to edge to see wat clothes they hav..
hmm.. ok la.. not really wat we finding 4 though..
went over to blossomz to 'visit' jia jia..
realised kian yee is working in the shop beside hers..
is it REALLY by accidental coincidence or purposely coincidence?
hmmmm.......
anyway we bumped into hy in 77th street..
whoa!! i lyk her hair!!
so straight! (of course, she rebond her hair)
suit her la..

walked over to bugis street..
most of the clothes there r between our price range so, yeah, we ended up buying smth..
i bought 2 tops for 20 bucks BUT kp bought 1 top for 18 bucks..
tt girl ar.. so LOVE tt shirt tt she cannot dont buy it lo..
then we went to look at other shops..
saw tis shop selling the same shirt(but diff pattern) and guess wat?
it's cheaper! 10 bucks ONLY!
wah... then she felt so wat seh..
seriously the shirt she bought look so much better than DAT shirt!
i mean the picture on the shirt la..

we were lyk walking talking n laughing lyk nobody's business..
then SUDDENLY my phone rang..
it was gh.............................. him again!
he very wat leh.. i dun feel lyk watching movie lo..
then he keep lyk wat kp termed as 'forcing' me 2 go lo...
n since yesterday was his last day at work..
i think he muz b damn bored at home today..
so................. i made a deal wif him..
which is.. he pay 4 the movie, i go accompany him watch..
he got no other choice so he agree lo..
MUAHAHA!

went over to sata to collect my medical report..
everything's okay.. ALL normal..
phew!

met gh at tm at ard 6plus..
WAH LAU EH.. i still muz accompany him go 2 the raffles medical centre there 2 collect his report! he cannot go there himself is it?
ok la.. nvm.. so i kept talking n complaining n refuting to everything he say la..
if not i lyk nth 2 talk 2 him PLUS i didnt want him 2 go discussing abt my breakup wif martin which he eventually got a chance 2 bring it up BUT i cut him short.. hehe..
bought the 7pm ticket..
movie was yours, mine & ours!
so funny! the lil kids so cute!
BUT most of all the eldest kid IS so handsome! omg!

ok, while we were waiting 4 the movie 2 start, gh started saying i today very talkative..
i was lyk WAT THE?
so i told him, when i quiet he say i very quiet lyk i'm in a bad mood or wat..
when i talkative he COMPLAIN i very talkative.. then wat am i s'posed 2 do?
he so lyk my father..

then i showed him the giro thingy 4 the poly fees, he say y show me on sunday?
show me on mon tues wed thurs or fri la..
so i showed him on mon..
then he said, "y show me now? ppl juz come back only.. cannot rest is it?"
then he go running when he come back, bathe, eat dinner..
i showed him the thingy again..
u noe wat he say? he said, "so late orede then show me.. y nv show me earlier?"
so i talked back to him.. dun blame me for being rude or wat..
i answered, "i show u on sun u said 2 show u on wkdays. i show u juz now u said u need 2 rest, i show u tis form after u rest u say so late orede.. when in the world is the right time 4 me 2 show u tis bloody pathetic form?"
true right? wat do u fucking want me 2 do huh?
i so look up 2 my mother 4 giving in 2 u every single fecking time!
so he FINALLY decided 2 sit down n fill in the bleedin forms..

anyway reached home at ard 9plus..
i'm TIRED!

2006-03-18T22:28:00.000+08:00

mummy accompanied me 2 my doctor's appointment today..
reached there ard 9plus..
she kept nagging at me 4 not waking up earlier..
as i was going 2 the medical checkup at SATA later wif kheng puay so she kept saying tt later i do the checkup halfway then the person say the centre is closed n 2 come back on monday..
i was lyk watever..
the appointment was not tt long anyway..

the doctor say i hav to go back on friday!!!
stupid wax!! argh!! so stubborn..
asked mummy 4 money 4 shopping later..
she gave me 50 bucks!!! only...........
then took bus 66 to bedok interchange..
mummy went to sheng shiong(or smth lyk tt)..
met kheng puay then went off to take 222 to the SATA there..

when we reached there, there was lyk such a LONG queue!
and tt mr kit said very little ppl there??
he call tis little ar?
so we queued up 4 lyk half an hr or so..
finally it was OUR turn!
my number was 204.. kp's 206..
met sum1 going 2 tp too..
her name is ummm... dunno how 2 spell la..
she is a malay.. she going 2 an IT course..

finished the checkup at ard 11 plus..
took 222 to bedok..
went to eat lunch at macdonalds..
ate the mcspicy meal.. yummy!
we then started chatting abt out pri sch days..
so funny.. so cute..

after tt took the train to orchard..
walked to far east n started trying on clothes!
kept looking at skirts n jeans..
the clothes there all not our type.. haha..
THEN i saw IT!! OMG!!
tt BLOSSOMZ skirt!!! so nice!!
BUT it's 35 bucks! goodness..
spend 30 bucks n above to get a free top..
so attractive but 35 bucks?!
no no.. i wont b able to buy many if i buy tt skirt..
sob sob.. it's so nice!! sigh..

in the end we juz bought a white skirt..
yeah.. we bought the SAME white skirt.. haha..
so if u go tp n see us wearing the same skirt u noe tt's the skirt i'm talking abt..
BUT we will not wear it on the same day..
unless it's by coincidence..

then walked along lucky plaza..
went to the heerens..
kp kept complaining she very tired need 2 find a place 2 sit..
so we sat at the 2nd floor in front of the wallet shop..
kp started talking abt her desired guy..
so we decided to look at guys..
the 1st guy passed by..
she say too short, not tanned enuf..
next, she lyk the height but too skinny make her feel fat..
the next one, got gf orede..
got some too muscular, too fat, too ugly, too blah blah...
nobody's perfect 4 her la.. haha..
but it's quite true.. all those comments she made on those guys..

by the time it was orede 6plus..
deicded to head home..
took the train.. were wondering how come we at newton..
realised we took the wrong train..
so paiseh..
kp alighted at bedok n i at simei..

rmbered tt the manhunt thingy organised by newurbanmale was at eastpoint..
so decided to take a look..
the guys were modelling in their trunks!
not cold meh?
got some of them approaching their thirties orede but still look lyk they're in their early twenties..
some of them their skin too light orede..
but most of them had tanned skin! so nice!
ALL of them hav 6-pack la.. if not they model 4 wat seh?
only a minority r handsome..
some of them oso quite skinny.. not nice la.. so bony..
too bad nv bring my cam if not i can post them here.. haha..

since love is unfair, will separation make it fair?

Sentosa

2006-03-15T18:41:00.000+08:00

went 2 sentosa wif my family today..
only my bro dad mum n me went..
my sis's busy.. it's a pity she didnt go..
i had so much FUN there!

woke up at 6plus..
was lyk complaining on y we shld wake up so early..
got our stuffs ate breakfast n head to sentosa at ard 8 plus..
took a train 2 harbourfront..
reached sentosa at 9 plus..
entrance fees for us were free cuz my mum had the 1-2-1 debit card or smth lyk tt..

took the blue line bus..
saw a whole grp of tourists.. they're REALLY young!
i guess they're frm south korea..
cuz of their language n btw i've been 2 korea so i noe how their language sounds..
n u noe wat? the girls' foundation DAMN THICK seh..
tt time i went there oso the same thing..
so how can ppl actually say tt their skin or complexion very gd?
ewww.. yucks!

alighted at the imbiah lookout there..
waited 4 the counter to open..
saw the carlsberg sky tower..
it IS HIGH!
but it's 10 bucks per person..
excuse moi.. no thanks.. it's juz going high up in the sky n coming down SLOWLY..
not lyk the one in korea where the thing going even higher up in the sky n ZOOM down to earth..
tt's call thrilling n chilling.. haha..
cuz the impact of the wind is damn great n the weather there is COLD..
at 10am finally got the tickets..
FAMILY tickets!!! 4 rides for 20 bucks..
and so the FUN BEGINS!!! yayyyy!!

FIRST ride of the day!!
sentosa luge!
u muz b wondering wat's tt..
it's smth lyk a goldcart..
had a SMALL training on how it works..
to brake pull the handle all the way back..
to move slightly let go of the handle..
to turn juz turn the handle la.. alamak..
then i got tis cute lil stamp on the back of me right hand..
it states "PASSED" wif a tick below..
didnt take a pic of it cuz i accidentally rubbed it off when i wiped my nose..
in other words my nose kena the stamp.. blue blue one..
luckily can rub it off.. if not so paiseh sia..

then took a tram to palawan beach..
wahhhh! sit down there suntan..
so shiok!
then saw loads of guys.. HANDSOME guys!!
nice bods.. n their skin so tanned!! wow!! OMG!!
so at tt point of time i was so determined to get tanned.. haha..
GIRLS GIRLS!! next time wanna see handsome guys wif tanned bods go sentosa..
siloso or palawan oso hav..
nice scenery.. haha..

my bro n dad brought their swimming trunks so they went into the water..
i juz sat there, or shld i say lay there? hmmm..
anyway i did went into the water at times..
but only until the water reach my shorts.. no further than tt..
if u suntan then go into the water u'll feel tt the water VERY cooling..
goodness!

went over to the other side to cross the bridge..
wah lau.. dunno who so fat ar..
walk until the bridge shake so VIOLENTLY..
after walking the bridge i can feel myself swaying seh..
unstable walking..
climbed the stairs to the top of the whatever u call tt..
SO WINDY!! ohmigosh!
the view oso very nice! my mama got take video of it.. haha...
hiya she nth 2 do ma..

went back to the beach..
sat there continue suntanning..
realised i on the verge of getting sunburnt so went to accompany my mum to sit in the shade..
walked over to 7-11 n bought the brain freeze drink..
nice! so cooling! refreshing!
ard 3 plus took the tram back..
decided to take another tram to siloso beach..
went 1 whole round..
the ride was BUMPY man!

after tt went to the chairlift station there..
my dad took the front..
my mum bro n i sat at the back..
cuz my dad wanna take pics ma..
the ride was lyk deja vu!
apparently when we went to goldcoast we sat the chairlift too..
haha.. anyway the scenery frm the chairlift is amazing!
u can actually see the beach! cool...
it's kinda scary when u look behind n below..
but u'll soon get over it..

took a bus back to harbourfront..
went to the coffee shop there..
ordered ice kachang n fried carrot cake..
the ice kachang ar is more brain freeze than the brain freeze drink seh..
false advertising on the brain freeze drink..
tut tut tut!

reached home at ard 6plus..
realised need 2 patch the maple thingy.. oh well..
dunno how 2 patch leh.. wat file is corrupt..
dunno wat the hell la..
anyway need 2 bathe now..

i'm trying to move on. without you.

2006-03-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

went to ecp wif hilly faja manaf n sofian..
finally got to meet the "great" manaf.. lol..
sorry hilly for being late.. AGAIN..
ecp is juz so far la.. for faja n me..
still muz walk to mac.. haha..

rented the bikes for 2 hrs..
cycled to bedok jetty..
saw jumping fishes.. so cool..
went to the beach.. played wif the water..
sat at the water breaker..
btw the water breaker was so hot tt i started jumping up n down..
the heat frm the rock literally burnt my bum!
hilly termed my jumping up & down as the "hot chicken dance" in her blog..
DANG!

then hilly started chasing faja n i wif sand in her hand..
so we started screaming..
i mean SAND! i wouldnt wan any sand on me..
especially in MY clothes! haha..
then saw sofian "juggling" wif the lifeguard thingy..
dunno wat he was doing.. prolly undoing the ropes or smth..

went over to the toilet to wash our feet..
hilly started splashing water at me so i splashed her back.. haha..
cycled for a while more..
and we saw THE ICE CREAM MAN!!!
got some chocolate ice cream wif bread..
hilly got choco chips..
faja got RIPPLE..(tt's wat my mum took the other time, i rmb!)
manaf n sofian got drinks..

then it was time to return the bikes..
cycled as fast as i could..
wanted to feel the "thrill" la..
then suddenly there were so many ppl..
i get nervous riding the bike when there r so many ppl..
cuz i was afraid of knocking into sum1 n falling off my bike..

started slowing down..
then manaf n sofian SUDDENLY came out of nowhere n cycled beside me..
they were so close it felt lyk i was going to crash into them..
i mean i was in the middle n couldnt do much but scream..
so i screamed wif my eyes CLOSED!
i couldnt believe it!
i actually cycled wif my eyes CLOSED!
goodness!

returned the bike n decided to head over to hilly's hse so it'll b easier for faja n me to get home by train..
so i sat on manaf's bike n faja on sofian's bike..
wah lau! my butt pain seh..
i sit on the wire.. so jia lat..
when i stand up can see one red patch there wif the shape of the wires..
damn pain lo.. but i didnt mind cuz it was quite fun..
i think the 2nd time more fun than the 1st(wif chorseng)..
2nd time in the day ma.. 1st time at night..

then sofian was lyk "complaining" to manaf abt faja's hair keep flying n kinda blocking his view or smth..
n manaf was lyk "haha.. i got the shorter hair one n the smaller size one"..
i was lyk "me? small? smaller than faja? impossible!"
sorry abt the phrasing.. kinda rhymes.. haha..

hilly felt dizzy n so we decided 2 take a rest..
then the most funny thing happened!
sofian *ahem* couldnt recognise him when he was sitting quite near her n her grp of frens..
we were lyk over there talking so loudly BUT u noe.. yeah..
aiyoyo.. sumtimes ppl can so blur until lyk tt..

to get to hilly's hse frm ecp we had to use the main road..
my first time riding on a bike on the main road..
kinda scary..
manaf kept manoeuvering between cars!
at times i even screamed!
cuz there was once tis car was turning n there was another car going straight..
manaf juz ZOOMed past! goodness!
it scared the byjasus out of me! god!
there was another time when the car was waiting to turn at the zebra crossing there..
the gap between the curb n the car was lyk TIS small..
BUT manaf juz "squeezed" past..
n he said "whoa.. it fits perfectly for the 2 of us" or smth lyk tt la..
wah lau! i was lyk sitting over there praying damn hard we wont knock into tt car lo..
n there he was acting so cool abt it! goodness gracious!

reached hilly's hse..
had some drinks..
washed me feet..
sat down..
chatted.. look at photo albums..
manaf n sofian went off first..
faja n i sat down for a while longer..
then hilly walked faja n me to the mrt station..
reached home at ard 7 plus..

i SWORE i got darker!! bleahx..
:P

how can u break my fucking heart n tell me u still love me?

2006-03-12T03:42:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry things had 2 end tis way.
i couldn't take it anymore.
you were so gd to me,
showering me with love,
going all out juz 2 make me smile.
i was so touched.

but as time passed,
i wasn't sure if ur love was true.
but i was very sure u've changed.

then i saw her name in ur msn nick.
viven.
why is the vixen's name there? why?
did i lose my love to sum1 better?
i asked u. i tried to tell u things.
but u weren't there to listen.
or rather u didn't hav the time to listen.

you thought i am happy being wif u.
i was. at the beginning.
deep inside i'm hurting so badly.
you told me you love me.
you promised me you would quit the gang, juz so u'll b able 2 spend more time wif me.
you promised me you'd study hard.
you said u would nv hurt me or let me get hurt.
i was such a fool 2 believe every single thing u said.
you lied to me. right frm the beginning.
how could u do tis to me?
you're so cruel. so evil.

why did u do the things u did?
the next thing i noe u're pushing me away.
i knew i couldn't let u lead me on forever.
it's gotta end sooner or later.
it's between whether i wanted 2 suffer more or less.

tt day when u came back 2 me.
i kept asking myself,
should i stay? or should i turn away?
i decided it was better tt i turn away first than to see u walking out of my life,
knowing tt things would nv b the same again.
i'm sorry.
i couldn't let myself suffer anymore.
i guess u can nv truly noe sum1.
you can love them, lie in their arms, noe all their deepest darkest secrets, allow them access to ur bank details, lose urself in their life, you can think you noe them.
but you can nv really see what's in sum1's heart.

tt day when i left u,
i saw hurt in ur eyes.
i wasn't sure wat i did was right.
we were letting go of smth special, smth we'll nv hav again.
why do we nv noe wat we've got till it's gone?
u said u still love me.
now i believe it was true.
but it is too late.
u should hav said earlier.
but u didn't.

they say time will heal the wounds.
i hope it's true.

falling in love is easy but it's getting back up tt becomes the problem.

2006-03-11T10:54:00.000+08:00

went to my uncle's hse for bbq yesterday..
his wife PREGNANT!!
whoa.. so fast.. REALLY fast.. haha..
plus yesterday her bday tt's y got bbq at the condo..
had to walk over to my uncle's condo since it was sooooo near..
but when u try walking it duzn seem so near to u..
he lives all the way at simei green...
it's lyk walking frm my hse to eastpoint x2..

reached there.. was so hungry so i started eating lo..
then my cousin, alex, came over to me n ask, "malerie jie jie where's stanley kor kor?"
i was lyk oh he went to camp.. sch camp..
then he gave me tt disappointed look n asked whether i wan play catching..
OMG! me? play catching? i think u ask wrong person la..
cant u see i'm eating huh??
anyway i kinda miss me lil bro!!! w/o him it's so quiet..
plus i didnt noe how 2 entertain alex.. only me bro noes how..
cuz they both almost the same age n they're both boys ma..
sighhhh...

after eating, my sis alex corliss(alex's sis) n i decided to explore the gym..
hmmm... looks lyk damai's gym leh.. except tis air con colder n the light different colour..
we were not s'posed to enter w/o a card..
BUT tis kind uncle inside let us in n b4 he went he reminded us 2 switch off the electricity..
then tis 2 girls came in..
i think both frm geylang methodist cuz 1 of 'em wore her sch uniform..
wah lau.. they both lyk so show off seh.. so stuck up..
but whatever la.. none of me business..

realised tt me uncle brough down a bottle of SPARKLING JUICE!!
yayness!
well the drink is not EXACTLY sparkling though.. haha..
it's a non-alcoholic drink.. some kind of like a wine for the underage..
n tis time guess wat's the flavour??
it's peach! heavenly!

sat on the BIG swing at the playgrd.. big cuz abt 4 ppl can sit on it..
the 3 ladies sat on the swing while the gentleBOY pushed it..
hehe.. he's not a man yet.. so..... yeah..
went over to the poolside n lie down on the chairs there..
my sis n i started talking having a heart-to-heart talk..
hmmm... it's been a loooonnngg time since we've done tt.. ^^

went up to the apartment n started watching the tv..
weiling (my uncle's wife) n her grp of frens started looking at the wedding pics..
welll... actually they were more into looking at the guys..
how handsome they are.. how young.. how old.. how rich.. n blah blah..
weiling told us tt we'll b lyk tt after we turn 25..
so i presume they muz all b above 25 la..
n since they all worked in the army..
they start talking abt wat they want in a guy..
tt he muz b of a certain rank..
muz b handsome.. n available.. sighhhh...

then we got to see the baby's pic!
as in the baby pic in the mother's womb..
some of her frens cant even differentiate which part is the baby's head!
i even had 2 point out to them the baby's head..
which is lyk so obvious!
cuz got the shape of the skull! if not wat can it b?
the baby's buttocks ar?
goodness!

then her frens went off at ard 11 plus..
started watching cinderella..
abt 12plus me parents call us to come down..
cuz we are going home!!! sob sob..
i wan the air con!!!

while walking home i realised there were still loads of ppl ard the mrt there..
where's the police???
didnt they mention abt the 11pm thingy in the papers??
anyway my sis n i felt kinda uneasy walking past them..
cuz they were lyk staring at us..
me sis n i were wearing shorts..
mine was worse..
i was wearing those kind tt when u wear a long shirt over it, it looks lyk i not wearing any shorts..
well tis is wat i wear at home n 2 sleep so cant blame me..
reached home at ard 1a.m...

the world is so small n yet u're the one i love.. how can i say tt i nv knew u?

2006-03-09T14:14:00.000+08:00

wow! finally.......
peace at home...
able 2 play maple for more than 5 hrs...
goodness..
i cant believe my luck...
really....
waaaaa.....
ok... gonna continue playing..
cannot waste time..
next wk march holis..
me siblings gonna snatch the computer frm me..
or rather fight over..
so now i MUZ play more to pay back..
hehe..

2006-03-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

ALRIGHT MAN! me bro is going for his camp tml! whoots! =)
anyway, went to bedok library wif hilly today..
am so sorry hilly tt i was late.. only a few mins la..
*pokes hilly blog* hehe..
yeah.. i FINALLY rmbered 2 bring the final destination vcd!

while browsing thru the books on the shelves, i spotted a book by the title "Speed of Light"..
kind of reminded me of Pokemon's Team Rocket..
told hilly abt it n being a cartoon maniac as she is, she started rattling the motto..
(extracted frm hilly's blog)
"To protect the world from devestation,
to unite all ppl within our nations,
to announce the evil of truth n luv,
to extend our reach to the star above,
Jessie, James, Team Rocket blast out
IN THE SPEED OF LIGHT..
Surrender now or prepare to fight...
Miao dats rite..WABAFAT"
LOL...

after borrowing our bks, n since we were going to walk all the way to chai chee to pick up hilly's letters frm her ex-house, we decided to put out bags in the locker..
BUT first we went over to cash converters!
hilly wanted to find her FIVE album AGAIN...
cuz the other time bought the wrong one..
then i saw the LATEST westlife album!!
right in front of me!! n since it was only 5 bucks.....
so why not?? haha..

then walked over to the bank..
hilly had 2 do smth wif her card..
got blocked or wat cuz her maid, i think, typed in the word p/w..
the service was so FREAKING sllllooooowwww!
plus hilly told me she had to change her address so many times but the ppl there still send the letters to her old address! wat is this man??!!

after tt, we walked over to chai chee..
the place there was soooooo quiet!! omg..
really freaky..
hilly said there used to be loads of bomohs or whatever u call it living there..
goodness..
BUT isnt it obvious??
the place was kinda dark n DARN quiet!

when we reached the house, i noticed it was very dark inside!
the windows were all closed..
BUT the 2 lil kids were so cute!! hehe..
and guess wat??
their maid looks eerily like my previous maid!
i was lyk OMG!
i didnt mentioned tt to hilly cuz i tot i muz b thinking too much la.. haha..

walked back to bedok.. went to giant to get some drinks..
i was so thirsty! juz one sip n it felt so heavenly! waaaaa...
went back to the library supposedly to get our bags but end up hanging out in the library..
saw the weighing machine n i literally RAN to it!
DANG!! 46kg!! oh no!!!!!!! i gain 1 kg seh.. shite! shite!
so much for saying mr kit muz hav gained weight tt's y he kept dropping down while doing some jumping quests in maple tis morning.. lol..
sighhhhhhhhh... muz ssshhheeddd tis 1 kg!!

anyway while we were sitting there..
hilly msging stacey.. tt girl ar.. sighhhh...
n me listening 2 her ipod n digging up new dongs in her list.. hehe..
saw a lot of damaians there.. ex-damaians too..
ard 6 plus decided to call it a day n went home..

i'm not ready to let u go.. but do i hav a choice??

2006-03-06T23:20:00.000+08:00

guys+ball=rough

i really really dun understand the above equation..
juz one touch of the ball, the guys' mind zero-ed in on the ball itself..
they becum so bleedin rough..
n they 4get all abt being gentleman..
they shove n push juz to lay their hands on the pathetic ball..
today during p.e.. me sis got hit in the jaw by the bloody ball!
dat BLOODY guy la!!!
he kick ball into the goalpost only not enuf muz kick n hit other ppl's jaw..
shit him la.. though it's not me.. but she's my sis ok?
if i see tt guy i gonna punch him square in his idiotic face!

arghhhhhh!!
hit until my sis lip got one long gash/wound..
confirm swollen one..
cuz me sis wear denches.. tt's why got blood..
then tt STUPID guy still hav the cheek to continue wif the game!
he didnt even apologise or offer any help..
wah kau.. he's juz sooooo SICK of living man!
he suck man!(although i dunno him)

plus there's tis other guy ar.. bloody toad seh..
his fingernails sooooo damn LONG!
oi.. u girl or boy? need french manicure ar?
keep long nails for wat?
no.1 mistake is keep long nails..
no.2 mistake is use it to scratch ppl!!!
another FREAK! he scratch me sis leh..
wat the fuck la.. son of a bitch! sick asshole!
no apologies said.. SHIT HIM!

poor sis.. she's sick.. fever on-off..
then still got physically-injured..
wif potential scars on her arm..
sigh......................

muahaha.. they didnt even do tt 2 me..
but i keep swearing n cursing them..
imagine if they really DID tt to me!
wat in the world will happen to them????
muahahahhahahhaha!!!!!
better watch out!! *wink*

2006-03-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

ok.. yesterday's dinner was ok..
had 9 courses altogether.. n dessert after tt..
out of the 9 courses abt 6 of them the same as of the day itself..
i felt so bloated tt i couldnt sleep at night..
kept tossing n turning until i finally fell asleep.. haha..

in the afternoon, me lovely parents brought me lil bro my maid n i to east coast park..
lil eunice nv go cuz she sick la.. poor girl..
mama drove the 3 of us there..
papa, as usual, ran all the way frm simei to east coast..
pro right? hehe.. (=

after mama parked the toyota..
guess wat we saw???
THE ICE CREAM MAN!!!!
mama bought for my bro n i chocolate while she got......erm...wat u call tt ar?
cannot rmb leh.. shit.. too long nv use brain orede..

anyway we went to rent a bike for me myself n i..
then me bro n i went off while mama went 2 find papa..
tis is the FIRST time i managed 2 convince didi to follow me..
we kept cycling n cycling till the seafood restaurants there..
saw tt they had actually built a place for recreational acitvities..
in tis case it's called cable-ski.. yeah.. s'pore's first EVER..

so we decided to stop n watch ppl do the sport..
it was soooooo fun!
one day i'm sooooo gonna try it..
but i prefer watching the wakeboarding championship or smth lyk tt held at bdk reservoir last yr!
ohhh.. ya.. i oso wanna try wakeboarding..
n tt is if i get a chance to do so..

i realised tt those ppl who could actually complete the 1st round n proceed to the 2nd round which includes the ramp were ALL foreigners! aiyo..
plus all guys seh.. only 1 girl.. havent even start she scream orede..
watch enuf orede then continued cycling..

wah lau.. i cycle until damn stress sia..
some ppl cycle so slow until i nearly fell when i slow down..
then some ppl blade tt time s'pose to b fast but they blade so slow... AGAIN..
i noe i very impatient la..
some ppl juz learn how 2 blade should go to the place where ppl ACTUALLY rollerblade..
since they cannot blade fast they shouldnt mix wif the cyclists.. unless they're pro.. if not SHOO! go back to the learners' corner..
later lyk last time.. dunno how the person blade until the wheels hit me bike..
then obviously the bike toppled n i fell..

wat's worse r lil kids wif their lil bikes!
u're cycling so peacefully, enjoying it..
nv expect the person in front of u to brake or sum1 frm the side to cut thru ur path frm nowhere..
n by the time u realised it..
u're orede on the ground, wondering wat the hell juz happened..
which unfortunately happened to me once.. sigh..

after tt, went over to my grandma's hse for dinner..
took a bath n played wif me 2 cute lil cousins!!
next time i take pics of them then i post them here.. haha..
BUT sometimes they very naughty one..
if i dun follow them in their room, they'll pull me hair n arm(one person one)
or they very clever.. they block the tv screen!!!!
anyway they didnt hav a chance to pull me hair today..
cuz my hair wet n i told them it's dirty tt's y it's wet so they dun dare to touch it..
imagine how cute n innocent they are! lol..

as i watch each day pass by, i grow more n more confuse.. should i do smth abt it? or juz let it be?

2006-03-04T13:16:00.000+08:00

eeeeaaarrrggghhhh!! got woken up by my feckin' gastric again!
keep forgetting to drink a cup of water b4 eating my breakfast..
actually my mum told me to drink a cup of full cream milk..
i was lyk yucks! i dun really lyk drinking full cream milk..
i prefer drinking fresh milk instead.. (=

oh yeah since i had nth better 2 do i started playing maple again.. hehe..
sold a number of scrolls n now i FINALLY reached 2 mil! yay!
i think i sold only 2 la..
the 60% dagger att i sold it for 1.9mil.. n the 10% overall armor for dex i sold 1 for 90k the other for 95k.. wahaha..
i've nv reach a mil b4! now i've not only reached 1 mil but 2 mil!! goodness!

later at night got dinner..
muz reach the hotel restaurant by 6p.m..
so early seh.. my uncle la..
nonono.. dun say i so fortunate..
it's becos tt time me uncle's wedding got leftover tables..
tt's y we get to go to the restaurant for dinner.. haha..

plus yesterday the posting released..
got me 2nd choice.. was ok wif it..
am going to biomedical in tp..
of all my frens NONE going to the same course as me!!! sob sob..
i wan go sp!!! tot of appealing but mama n papa say go tp..
nearer n got pharmaceutical tech.. i was lyk ok lor..

hmmmm..............
*prays hard theresa's appeal for poly is successful*
*prays hard faja's appeal for other courses is successful*
*prays hard hilly get the moe teaching thingy so she can oso go tp wif me*
hehe.. hehe......... hoho........
*prays HARD for me to pick up or get even better scrolls in maple*
muahahaha.. wahahaha.. am crazy.. (=

life is not ENTIRELY unfair.. it depends on one's attitude towards life.. take for example, a bottle of water.. pessimists see the bottle to be half-filled wif water but optimists see the bottle to be entirely-filled wif water..

2006-03-02T20:55:00.000+08:00

see tt guy there? so cool right? wat skills he use, the skill name will appear.. so cute.. haha.. took this screenshot a few days ago..

2006-03-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

went for the job interview today wif hilly..
well, hilly got the job n i didnt..
it's ok.. i dun really feel lyk working..
i prefer staying at home in the morning mapling wif mr. kit..
then going out wif frens in the afternoon till night..
or watch tv n hav dinner wif the family at night, if possible..

took 196 to parkway parade..
went to polar to look at the cakes there..
waaaaa.. the first row nearly all chocolate!!! yummy! >.<
hilly decided to get the chocolate mousse one for her bday..
then went over to kfc to check out the price for the family feast..
saw huda there.. she was waiting for her bf to finish work..
decided to sit down wif her.. we chatted n laughed as usual..

after that, hilly n i took 966 to eunos mrt station..
had to rush over to pasir ris interchange..
met kheng puay, char n cs there.. i'm so sorry tt i was late guys..
took 403 to pasir ris park..
jian guang, jun wei n hong yee were already there bbqing..
then hy had 2 go off.. shortly afterwards kit n gh came back frm blading n cycling respectively..
wished kit happy bday..

went to sit at the beach..
saw a guy doing smth wif the sand.. saw smth glowing in the middle..
after he went, kp char n i decided to take a look at it..
OMG!! it was so NICE! juz beautiful! so romantic! so sweet!
it was a heart n he actually digged a hole so tt he can put a candle in it..
jun wei took a pic of it..

took gh's bike, wanted to cycle to the playgrd alone..
miss the swings there.. BUT kit wanted me to accompany him find a shop so he can buy his water..
anyway we passed by the playgrd n the swing was occupied so it was ok..
FINALLY found the shop.. FINALLY he got 2 buy his water..
funny thing is how come i accompany him he can find the shop but gh accompany him he cannot find the shop?

went back to the pit n helped ourselves wif the food..
sat down in the tent for a while.. then went over to the beach there again..
then kp jg n char went away.. decided to sit alone..
kit came over n we started chatting..
didnt noe he oso had an ipod nano.. n that he was using me headphones wif his ipod! tt guy ar.. luckily he tell me if not when i reach home n realise me ipod's headphones smth wrong then he's SO gonna get it frm me!
anyway i wanna thank him 4 listening 2 my crap n not minding one bit.. =)

ard 9 plus, kp char cs n i decided to head home..
decided to try out wat it's lyk to sit at the front of the bike while cs cycled..
it was SO fun.. both of us nearly fell down once n i screamed..
luckily not many ppl ard.. if not very paiseh..
reached home at ard 10plus..

P.S. once again i would lyk to wish mr. kit one last time b4 the day is over.. HAPPY 17th BDAY TO MR. KIT! may all ur wishes come true! =)

East Coast Park

2006-02-28T09:24:00.000+08:00

went out wif fiqa n faja to east coast park cycling yesterday.. was s'posed 2 meet at 2pm but tis fiqa ar..
muz go fetch her siblings frm sch then after reach home still wanna eat lunch n blah blah blah.. so faja n i decided 2 walk over 2 mac..
both of us had fries n ICED milo! yummy!
finally at 3plus fiqa reached bdk interchange..
took bus196.. started cycling at 4.40pm..
by the time the sun not very sunny orede :(
my motive ytd was to tan n cycle but i only achieved one! T.T

had a great time cycling.. cycled frm one end to the other..
went over to the jetty n started screaming at the sea..
nobody there so we decided 2 release our "stress" lo..
after tt, went down to the sea n played wif the water..
the water so cooling.. i LOVE it! but high tide so fiqa n faja's pants wet..
i wear shorts so didnt affect me much.. hehe..
walked over to the water breaker, sat there n started chatting..
returned the bikes at 6.40p.m..

walked over to mac.. AGAIN..
i ordered iced milo AGAIN.. fiqa chocolate sundae n faja oreo mcflurry..
realised tt we can order mac frm the car..
i think it's the only mac in s'pore tt has tt.. so cool right?

decided 2 head home..
while we were walking towards the bus stop, saw the bus going off..
luckily it stopped at the red light..
faja asked whether wanna run 2 the next bus stop.. fiqa said she was crazy.. i was lyk why not?
then all 3 of us were lyk sprinting towards the next bus stop..
and guess wat? we caught the bus! phew!
if not so wasted seh.. cant believe we've actually done it!
the bus stop was lyk so far!

reached tampines interchange.. decided to go walk walk.. went over to tis fashion..
around 9pm decided to call it a day..
reached home.. took a bath..
mum asked me how come i didnt tell her i was going out today instead of tues..
i said i told her the change of plans ytd..
so she keep quiet lo.. haha
ate dinner peacefully.. which is quite a surprise.. haha..
after sat at the sofa, stoned..
didnt noe wat 2 do.. i guess i fell asleep..
then my dad woke me up.. i was SO shocked seh.. i nearly fell frm the sofa.. haha..

slept real well n early yesterday night..
guess it's becos i felt washed out frm the walking n cycling..
recently dunno why cannot sleep, keep tossing n turning..
so since ytd tt didnt happen i was SO overjoyed tis morning! haha..

P.S HAPPY 17TH BDAY TO DANIEL!

once in a while it's gd to let out the feelings n thoughts u've bottled up for so long.. juz so u'll b able 2 give urself a break n move on.. u'll feel much better after tt..